Friday, October 16, 2020
Friday, October 2, 2020
This past fortnight started challenging, but has ended on a fairly high note. Last week was mentally tough after the blow of not getting the job and also it being a year since the dizziness started. When I saw my doctor last Thursday I told him I couldn't believe it had been a year of dizziness and his response was that he could as he still had no idea what could be causing it. This past week has been really nice with having friends over for lunch on Monday, then picnic with friends on Wednesday, catching up with a friend on Thursday for lunch and just recharging. My dizziness has increased to a 4 out of 5 and I'm also dealing with fatigue, so it will be interesting to see what my blood test results say when I see my doctor next Thursday. I have applied for a few jobs and I'm praying that one may produce an interview but I just don't know. At this point in time I am just taking it one application at a time and giving it all to God.
This weekend is looking to be busy with seeing my sister in a dance competition tomorrow and then on Sunday I have a friend's baby shower which should be nice. Next week isn't too busy but I do have a psych appointment, employment agency appointment and my usual doctor's appointment, so lots of appointments. I am also catching up with my friends who I am going to see Hamilton with and we're hopefully booking an Airbnb and planning more of our trip which will be exciting.
Onto Friday Favourites...
Imogen Split Midi Skirt - I probably don't need another skirt for Summer but I saw this one in Jeanswest and I just had to buy it. I love the style and the print is super cute and it sits really well on me. I also loves how it will work in with the tops already in my wardrobe and I can wear it to multiple places.
Kara Curve Embracer Skinny Capri - if you can't tell I buy many of my clothes from Jeanswest. I used to live in 3/4 length pants when I was younger, but once I got older I could never find any that I liked and fitted me well. But I was in Jeanswest last week and decided to try these on and they fitted really well along with being a great length. I also got this pair (in a smaller size as they run large) as I wanted a lighter wash.
Folding Serve Tray - I should never go to Kmart as I always end up doing impulse buys! Last week I went in for paper cups and plates for a picnic and walked out with this tray. I figured it would be useful for the picnic as I was bringing all the cheese and crackers but also for general use around the house. I like how it can stand up and is a good size for a laptop
Confetti Cookies - I made these last week and they are so good! I will say making them in a food processor probably wasn't the wisest idea as they didn't combine as easily (and I had to keep emptying it out and mixing it in a bowl then returning the mix to the food processor), so I'm thinking next time I will just use the mixmaster. But they taste great (probably due to all the butter) and the sprinkles add a fun touch. You can't stop at just one cookie and this has been confirmed by many people.
Secret Society of Second Born Royals - I have watched this movie twice in the past week and both times I've really enjoyed it. It's a light film and I liked the storyline and the characters, also the fashion in parts was really great. I will say I was a but disappointed that Skylar Astin didn't break into song during it considering it was a Disney film. The ending was left open so I'm hoping for another film in the series.
Thursday, September 24, 2020
- Low iron
- General vitamin/mineral levels that show up in blood tests (low vitamin D etc)
- Kidney issues (that show up on a detailed blood test)
- Diabetes (including pre-diabetes)
- Stiff heart valve/other heart problem
- Anything that could show up on a MRI (tumour etc.)
- Vestibular migraines (this has been ruled out twice!)
- Inner ear issues including balance problems
- Anxiety/mental health (but my mental health has been impacted by the dizziness, which is understandable)
- Meniere's disease
- Sinus inflammation
- Iron infusion (it increased my iron but didn't stop the dizziness)
- Vestibular Migraine Diet
- So many medications that I won't list here but including anti epileptic medications, antibiotics, ibuprofen and medications targeted for Meniere's disease.
Monday, September 21, 2020
I told myself I wouldn't get my hopes up with this job, I told myself that whatever happened I wouldn't shed tears yet this is exactly what ended up happening. Last Thursday I got a message from one of my references that they had been contacted regarding this position and my hopes shot up maybe this job was the one, the one I had been waiting so long for. I let myself dream of employment and yes I knew the job was four days which might be a bit much at the moment especially after having a couple of days with more dizziness than usual and yes they only had funding for the position until December but maybe they would get more funding and I could be made permanent. I let myself get excited and I felt content for once, I imagined celebrating getting the job. I kept pushing aside the doubts I had about the job and I hoped my doctor would sign off on me working it.
I didn't hear anything on Friday and I told people on Saturday night that my references had been contacted and that the job seemed promising ignoring the voice in my head saying that it wasn't a done deal. Then today I missed a call when I was at lunch with a friend and when I listened to the voicemail from one of the people who interviewed me saying to call them I got excited. I tried to ring them back multiple times and I kept getting a busy line. I got home after lunch and my anxiety was off the rails, I tried to stay busy and paid a medical test bill (that finally came despite having the tests in June) all the while wondering if I had the job. I eventually got through and I was told that it came down to me and another person and unfortunately I didn't get the job. I tried to stay upbeat and asked for feedback and asked if my references were good (which they were), it came down to experience at the end of the day. Towards the end the tears started to fall and the person on the other end of the phone got apologetic and concerned and said I was a good candidate and it was a close race. I hung up and the tears really started to fall and a mini panic attack started. I messaged friends and my bible study group thanking them for their prayers and support but I wasn't successful in getting the job. It had been over four weeks since the interview and four weeks of built up anxiety collapsed on my shoulders. I rang up my employment agency consultant and let them know and they were supportive and told me I would soon find the perfect job. I let the anxieties I had with the job bubble up and I wondered if it was even wise for me to work four days a week at the moment.
I have always said throughout this journey God is in control and that he lead me to studying community services for a reason and would lead me to the perfect job and this job wasn't it. I prayed throughout this recruitment that if it was the right job that he would make it work but if it wasn't the right job that he would comfort me and guide me to the right job at the right time. So I'm back to square one and I feel defeated but tomorrow is a new day and I'm one interview closer to getting the job for me.
Friday, September 18, 2020
These past two weeks have busier than normal, with various appointments and catching up with friends along with birthday celebrations. On Tuesday I turned 26 and it was low key and I felt very loved and appreciated. I honestly couldn't have had a more perfect day from the weather to having a great psych appointment to having a lovely dinner with my family. I also got some great gifts including a Fossil bag and a Shawn Tan print. Then on Wednesday night instead of bible study we did games and enjoyed cake as four us all have birthdays in September so it made sense to do a combined celebration which was fun. I of course had to make cake toppers using my Cricut which turned out great. Speaking of my Cricut I have been using it at least twice a week if not more and I am obsessed with making labels for everything (the cats are safe...for now) including my water bottle and bible.
I'm still waiting to hear back regarding the interview I had four weeks ago (the recruitment process has been delayed due to unforeseen circumstances) and I have so many feelings regarding it. I know I could do the job and I really want to work in advocacy especially having to self advocate this past year with my consistent dizziness and seeing various specialists and knowing that not everyone can self advocate. I just know that at the end of the day God is in control of it all and if I'm meant to get the job he will make it happen.
My doctor has asked me to keep a detailed diary regarding my dizziness to see if we can work out if there's a pattern regarding the good and bad days. I keep a daily log of what I eat, my activities, how many hours I slept and a rating of the dizziness out of 5 (5 being the worst). It's going to be interesting to see if we can decipher anything out of it when I see my doctor on Thursday.
Onto Friday Favourites...
Away (Netflix series) - I am not a science fiction person at all, ask anyone and they will tell you it's one of the genres I avoid (alongside horror) but I saw this show on Netflix and decided to give it a go. I really enjoyed it and watched it in 3 days. It's about a group of people getting to Mars and how their families are coping back on earth along with their changing relationships. I can honestly say I was surprised with how much I enjoyed it and if you need something to watch I highly recommend it.
The Body Shop Lemon shower gel- I love the smell of citrus and when I saw this limited edition shower gel I had to try it. The scent is zingy, sweet and fresh and reminds me of Summer, it lathers well and leaves me feeling refreshed.
Chocolate Mousse Cake - I made this cake for Wednesday night and while it had a lot of steps it turned
out really well and while it was rich I made it with almost all 70% dark chocolate which reduced the sweetness (I did use some milk chocolate in the mousse layer and a bit in the ganache). I topped it with maltesers which gave a crunch factor and it was a huge hit all round. I would definitely make it again for a special occasion.
Mini Pen Pals notepad - I've been eyeing these for a while and I decided to buy one the other week as I got sent a $5 off voucher to use during my birthday month. I love how they're a keyring with a pen and notebook but you can't tell. I bought the cat one and it makes me smile whenever I see it in my bag.
Glitter Vinyl - this is the vinyl I am using for labels at the moment, I have it in 4 colours (gold, silver, black and pale blue) and I love it. You will need the strong transfer tape though but thankfully each roll comes with a sheet of it. I also advise that you increase the blade pressure to more as even after selecting the correct vinyl (glitter premium) I found it needed a boost to cut it. It weeds relatively well mind you after weeding it I always find vinyl stuck to me (as is always the case!) but I'm making it a trend haha!
Monday, September 14, 2020
It's the day before my 26th birthday and I'm surprisingly feeling ok about it. I have spent today baking cupcakes to share with my family tomorrow and a chocolate mousse cake to share with my bible study family on Wednesday night. I have done so many dishes (I'm pretty sure I washed the mix-master bowl + beaters 5 or 6 times) and there were times when I had no idea exactly what I was doing (because I keep forgetting that multitasking is hard while experiencing consistent dizziness!) but everything turned out in the end.
If you had asked me this time last year how I saw myself celebrating my 26th birthday I would've said that I would go to work and then go out for dinner somewhere with my sister. Instead Covid has meant that my parents didn't go to Peru as planned and the economy has crashed so I don't have a job. I'm also experiencing consistent dizziness that started 9 days after I turned 25. But I know that I am exactly where God wants me, it's funny but this year is one of the first years that I haven't asked for a job. Instead I am giving it to God and letting all that anxiety go, because it's not worth the energy. So tomorrow I will go see my psychologist and then I will do some retail therapy, before we go out to dinner as a family to celebrate. I'm going to try and ignore this dizziness for at least one day and enjoy the nice Spring weather. I will probably wear this top and my sparkly silver Keds because they make me happy. Then on Wednesday night I will have a combined birthday celebration with 3 of my friends who all have birthdays in September. It's going to be a low key celebration but that's what I want, I just want to turn 26 quietly and keep taking it one day at a time and not be anxious about the future and the what ifs that keep running through my head.
Friday, September 4, 2020
And just like that we're in September and as is the case September is filled with birthdays and things
just start getting busier. I think the promise of warmer weather causes people to start planning things and I always have an influx of events in September/October. Last week I had my fortnightly doctor's appointment (I have honestly forgotten what it's like to only see my doctor a few times a year) which was uneventful and we're still waiting and seeing how the dizziness goes. I also had my annual hair cut so my hair is now short and a lot more manageable, which is good. Then this past week I played with my Cricut and caught up with a couple of friends which was nice.
I have yet to hear anything about the job I went for two weeks ago but I am almost certain I haven't gotten the job as none of my referees have been contacted. While I'm disappointed, I'm continuing to trust in God throughout this time and I know he has the right job for me which I will get at the right time (though I'm not going to lie it would be nice if it could happen sooner rather than later!).
Onto Friday Favourites...
Hamilton Australia - I really enjoyed seeing Hamilton on Disney+ and the music has been on repeat ever since. When I heard that the play was coming to Australia next year I jokingly said to a friend that we should fly across and a mutual friend contacted me asking if I was interested in coming as she was organising a trip so I thought about it for 5 minutes and decided to do it. So last Monday my friend G was on presale grabbing tickets for July and we have tickets. We still have to organise airfares and a place to stay but we're going to wait, as we're not allowed out of our state (thanks Covid) so we will book closer to July and our priority was getting the tickets. It should be a fun trip though and I'm looking forward to going.
Review Pretty Petal Top - I ended up buying this top on Thursday and I really like it. The cut is super flattering and the print is really fun. I also like how it can be dressed up or down and I could get away with wearing it in an office. I will say it was a splurge but I did have a $20 voucher as well as it being 25% off so it wasn't too bad.
I Bought a Cricut (blogpost) - I have finally gotten round to writing a post about my Cricut and the tools I have along with the resources I use. It's gotten quite a workout this past week, I have finally figured out how to cut vinyl so I have a feeling that everything will be labelled soon and I made quite a few cards as well. I am getting more confident in using it and I'm looking forward to seeing what I can create with it.
Dear Anaesthesia (Dear Theodosia parody) - this an extremely well done Hamilton parody and when I sent it to my cousin and her husband (both who are doctors and my cousin in-law is currently doing a placement in anaesthetics) and they loved it.