Monday, August 31, 2015

The balancing act

I have not disappeared off the face of the earth, I have just been extremely busy settling in to work and trying to get into some sort of routine.
Work is going well and I am loving it! My anxiety has stayed at bay and I credit that to God, the amazing work environment and my amazing supervisor. I see my psych on the 8th of September and I can't wait to tell her how I am going. I have spent most mornings just relaxing and getting in a good headspace for the work day ahead (I start work at 12.00 and try to leave at around 11.15am most mornings). I hope to start studying this week at least 1 morning but I am aiming for 2 :)
I turn 21 in 2 weeks tomorrow which is scary! I guess when I was younger 21 was this magical age, I would have my life somewhat together but the reality is I am still attempting to figure everything out and I know I will never fully have my life together. I have 2 celebrations for my birthday one for the extended family and another for friends both on the Saturday before. I have work on my actual birthday which will be different considering this will be the first time ever that it has happened (I have had school on my birthday but never work). I plan on doing something in the morning and taking in cupcakes to share for afternoon but I don't want to make a big deal about it considering the Saturday will be the big celebrations.
I think that turning 21 will mark the start of my next stage in life though, the working stage! I am so thankful for this job and as I keep telling my friends I couldn't have chosen a better workplace which made the major difference. I have had a bad run of working in places where the environment is really bad, people don't want to work there, the boss spies on you 24/7 and there is no communication between the boss and the employees. Yet with this environment people want to work there, the communication is great and there are no secrets between anyone. I know I can tell my supervisor when I am having a bad day and when I need extra support and the same goes for my colleagues, I am treated as an equal despite only being there 2 full weeks and its great.
I have a few plans for some awesome posts coming up and this Friday there will be Friday Favourites (which I have been working on for the past 2 weeks but haven't gotten the chance to finish yet!). Thanks for all your prayers lately and letting me take some time to work out this balancing act which is life!

Monday, August 17, 2015

My first day

Today I had my first day of work and I am exhausted! I left home at 7.30 this morning (induction was at 8.30 and I knew it would take me around 30 minutes to get there but figured I should give myself some extra time just in case something went wrong) and got home at around 5.15 this afternoon. The day was a lot longer than usual as I had my induction then went straight into it. I am so thankful that I know my supervisor and am already familiar with the place as my anxiety wasn't too bad compared to what it could be. I spent today listening in to calls and taking notes on how to answer them and also processing payments for rates, I do admit that it feels strange to be working after so long and I think that will be the biggest challenge getting used to working everyday. Working 5 hours a day is great for me as it means I will be able to pick things up quickly (compared to if I was only 2 days a week) and won't get overwhelmed by the hours. I also like being able to take the mornings easy and still being able to study and meet friends for coffee.
I turn 21 in less than a month which is exiting and I am trying to focus on getting to that as it will be around the one month mark and things should (hopefully) get easier from there. I am trying not to put too much pressure on myself and to just take it one day at a time, I know there will be days when I will struggle and my anxiety will play up but everyone has days like that and as long as I survive them I will be fine.
I still can't believe that I finally have work and that its in such a great place and environment, once again God knew what he was doing even though I struggled at times to believe that he did.

Wednesday, August 12, 2015

No more silence

I apologise for all the silence over here, last week I made the decision to have a mental health week as life had been so full on and emotionally and mentally draining. I just wanted a week to do nothing and a part from a couple of appointments that is what I did!
Well I am officially un-unemployed! I start my new job on Monday which is super exiting and scary at the same time. Its a 1 year contract but I am praying that it will get extended, of course I am just super happy that I finally have work! Its 5 days a week 1-5pm which works out really well as I can study and do ReachOut stuff in the morning before work. I got the call on Monday afternoon and it wasn't a complete surprise as I had gone for a medical and drug test the Monday prior which I was told if I was one of the short listed applicants would happen. Its at the same place that I did work experience and temp work at, so I know the environment and some of the people there which is great. I went to pick up the paperwork today and took my Mum down as she had no idea where it was and she commented on how good the work environment felt and you could tell that the people loved working there. I am going to continue seeing my psychologist which I know will help with the transition plus I feel like I am in much better place with my anxiety compared to all my previous jobs.
Unemployment as unfortunately hit a 13 year high which seriously sucks and I know to get this job was nothing short of a miracle especially as the market is so competitive. For this job there was 200 applicants and they had to take down the job advert early, they interviewed 6 people for what ended up being 3 positions so the odds were definitely a lot better than other jobs I had gone for in the past. I have applied for so many jobs and I once worked it out that for every 20-30 jobs I applied for I would get 1 interview.
I don't feel like my time being unemployed was a complete waste during that time I have learnt how to better managed my anxiety, challenge myself and have grown as a person because of it. I'm not going to pretend that it was a complete walk in the park as it wasn't and I struggled so many times. It seemed whenever I got close to getting work and I would get my hopes up, I wouldn't get the job and would be crushed. Sometimes I wouldn't even hear back from interviews I went to and there is nothing worse than being on edge for days and eventually realising that you won't get a call and feeling like you meant nothing to the company.
I am so glad that I got this job and I can't think of a better place where I would rather work, it taken me many job applications, interviews and rejections to get where I am and I can honestly say that it was worth it would I do it all again in a heartbeat? No! But I am proud of myself for sticking out the past (almost) 2 years and I know that I can survive the first couple of weeks at this job.