Saturday, June 25, 2011

Don't Care

You know what? I don't care anymore, like at all, I don't care what people think of me or whats happening at school, I don't care about your problems. Because caring is one of the things that go me into this mess! Yes I care about certain things but heres the deal don't push your problems onto me, I need to tend to my problems first and then maybe if I have time I will care about yours. I need to focus on myself and no one else! Because for long time my problems have been consistently put down on the bottom of the list, you know the part of the never ending list? The part that never gets sorted? So for once I will focus on myself! I think that sounds fair to me! Honestly if you have any problems that you want sorted go talk to someone other than me, yes for certain people I will help them, but that will be on my terms no one elses!
Thanks for listening

Saturday, June 18, 2011


Today I awoke at 4.30am to my two cats fighting in my room.
Today I made choc chip muffins for breakfast.
Today is my Mummy's birthday :)
So Happy Birthday Mummy!!! Thanks for being there for me in all the hard times hope you have a great day :D <3 <3
Here is a quick family photo (my Mummy is in the dark blue shirt :D)
*May I point out that under no circumstances am I allowed to tell you my Mummy's age it is confidential also if I tell you the chances are my mother will find out and I will get in big trouble

Friday, June 17, 2011

Glee Finale Season 2 :D

Who watched the season finale of Glee the other night? I did and I loved it! In a sense I was glad that they came 12th instead of somewhere in the top 10 as that gives them something to aim for this coming season (season 3 which will probably air in september sometime going from when season 2 aired and everything I have read online has told me new episodes will air in Fall in America which is our Spring). I thought it was the perfect end to this season I loved how Finn and Rachel got back togeather I was really annoyed when they broke up halfway through this past season. Also the songs they sang were amazing I mean those guys are sooo talented! So here are my predictions for what will happen in season 3 (based on what I have read and my own theories):
  • Finn and Rachel will stay togeather they will have their struggles but will work through them.
  • Sam and Mercedes will be togeather for awhile but may break up (I'm not sure).
  • Quinn will get a new guy (they have mentioned that there will be 3 new charcters coming this season).
  • Blaine and Kurt will stay togeather but break up breifly and thenBlaine will transfer over to Mckinley as the competion between the two schools is to great, to save their relationship.
  • Will and Emma will get married and the glee club will perform at their wedding (I am being really hopeful here!)
  • They will win nationals or come 2nd or 3rd :)
Here are my predictions I will be sure to keep tabs to see if my predictions are close or true and update them here :)

Wednesday, June 15, 2011

Reasons why I am blasting Glee

Reasons why I am blasting Glee
  • I'm over everything! I want things for once to work out.
  • It is putting me in a better mood.
  • I can relate to the lyrics (Pretending and Get it Right are storys of my life right now)
  • It is cold and wet outside and I really don't want to brave the cold weather right now (though I soon will, to do papers).
  • It annoys my father.
  • Its better than studying.
Yep I'm in a bad mood

Sunday, June 12, 2011

A memory

I have an image memory in my mind one that came to me when I was folding my papers, I got reminded of it because my hands were freezing! So heres the image:
Its around 10.30 at night, its summer, we (about 10-15 people) are on rocks near the beach, you can here the water lapping on the rocks below.   As its down south its freezing around 5 degrees, the cold slices through us like a knife. Everyone is wearing jeans, and jackets, most are wearing enclosed shoes but some (maybe 2) are wearing thongs (flip flops). We are all sitting on the rocks staring up at the stars which light up the sky. Its silent for a while then we get talking, most of the time its about how cold it is or how beautiful the sky is. Then you* and your friend begin singing a bicycle built for two each taking turns saying one word, it makes me laugh. We then chat for a while and I make the comment 'How can you go bare foot, its freezing!' you laugh and say 'It's a tough job but someones got to do it.'
Thats the memory the one I can't seem erase and don't want to.
*you refers to a person whom I'm not going to name here.

Thursday, June 9, 2011

Not in control...anymore

I went to the doctor today and he gave me the answer I was expecting (as much I didn't want to hear it) wait and see how it goes and if the feelings don't stop after the next few months (when I have to see him anyway) we can look into other options. I get what he's saying but it just makes me feel helpless, I want to do something to stop these feelings but I can't, I just have ride it out and hope they end.

I told my mum this (my dad went with me as he sees the same doctor) and she told me how year 12 is a hard year for everyone no matter what subjects your doing. As you realise that at the end of the year whether you like it or not you won't be going to school anymore. This scares me as I really don't know what I am going to be doing next year, I mean I have some ideas but I don't know where I will be. I have always been someone who likes to be in control of situations and I admit I can be a control freak at times, so maybe this is why I am feeling like this because I'm no longer in control over things anymore. I don't know, but for someone who has always liked to be in control and knowing that I have no control over the future, the future scares me ALOT.

So for now I can only hope and pray these feelings disappear as I hate feeling this way!

Tuesday, June 7, 2011

Movie Review: Soul Surfer

Last night I went and saw the movie Soul Surfer, I first read the book when I was 12 and loved it! So I have been waiting for the movie for a while and it did not disapoint!
For those who haven't heard of Soul Surfer or Bethany Hamilton here is a quick overview of the story: Bethany is well on her way to becoming a pro surfer when she loses her arm in a shark attack, since then she has managed to become a pro surfer and spreads the word of god when ever and where ever she can. The movie shows the main events leading up to the attack and how it not only affected her but everyone around her. It also shows her many struggles in getting back on the board and being a pro surfer.
Best Bit: I LOVED the whole movie, it is a really great film, I loved how they included some christian artists on the sound track, such as Britt Nicole.
Worst Bit: Though the film was great it wasn't centered around god as much as the book or documentry but this is understandable.
Who to Bring: me, my mum and sisters went to see it and we all loved it, though there were 2 guys in the cinema who seemed to enjoy it too, so I think anyone will enjoy it.
Heres the link to the movie trailer here and the offical movie site here. So if you can please check it out you won't regret it!

Saturday, June 4, 2011

My Goals

I have realised that I need to set myself so to help stick to my goals I have decided to post them free places: My wardrobe door, my journal and my blog! I will keep you updated with how they are going once in a while (read under, when I remember!), so here are my goals:
  • Build my confidence.
  • Smile more.
  • Graduate high school.
  • Get into either TAFE or a traineeship, after school. Then get work in the area of Customer Service.
  • Put myself out there more.
I only chose 5 goals as anymore and I would find it hard to work towards them all and this way I can focus more on them.