Saturday, December 31, 2011

So long 2011!

With 2011 ending in a few hours I thought I would take time to reflect on this past year :) this year hasn't always been easy, but I survived it! There have been highlights, lowlights and inbetweenlights, but hey life wasn't meant to be easy!

Even though 2012 hasn't started yet there are already a few struggles that we will have to face,starting tomorrow morning when we begin our search to find a new church 'home'. A few months ago my Dad decided he would resign from his current job as a baptist pastor and begin part time study starting in 2012 to get his masters in theology so he would eventually be able to lecture and maybe go to Peru as a missionary (along with my Mum) to teach pastors over there. So starting tomorrow we will begin to search for a new church. Many people have asked me how I feel about all this and my answer has always been the same "It's going to be hard and sad, but it feels right." so I will just have to trust God.

I don't know how exactly 2012 will turn out compared to 2011, but I do know God will be with me (and my family) every step of the way.

Thursday, December 29, 2011

Goals *update*

A while ago (ok it was in June) I posted a list of my goals and never got round to reviewing them until now. My goals were the following:
  • Build my confidence.
  • Smile more.
  • Graduate high school.
  • Get into either TAFE or a traineeship, after school. Then get work in the area of Customer Service.
  • Put myself out there more.
I managed to complete the following:



  • Build my confidence.
  • Smile more.
  • Graduate high school.
  • Get into either TAFE or a traineeship, after school. Then get work in the area of Customer Service.
  • Put myself out there more.
Yes I managed to do all of them! For starters I have grown alot confident in the fact that I have learned to speak my mind and managed to get a job :) I am also smiling more and are generally alot happier now. I did graduate high school which I was very proud of my self for surviving it. I got accepted into tafe in september (I haven't gotten work in the area of customer service yet but that was to help me focus on the big picture) which helped me put myself out there more because it gave my confidence and the realisation that I could do anything if I put my mind to it.

I never expected to complete all my goals when I set them but I did. Though some of them I will always need to focus on (like smiling more and bulding my confidence in myself) but I am glad I did focus and achieve them. I think this just proves to me that I can achieve anything I put my mind to over time. Now all I need to do is write new goals for the new year (I will post them when I do but it probably won't be for a few weeks)

Tuesday, December 27, 2011

My Past Year In Posts

How was everyones Christmas? Mine was good :) I have decided to do a year in review in posts so basically I will list some key events in each month and link posts and insert some pics.

January
I did 10 posts in total
I reached my 100th post
I did a post on Teen bloggers and mentioned one of my friends blogs
And I posted about me starting my last year of high school.

February
I did 9 posts in  total
I did a post about 10 things you didn't know about me
I explained why I wasn't taking a date to the ball
I wrote about how me and my youngest sis are very different

March
I did 8 posts in total
I wrote about my Ball here (and here and here)
and I wrote about the other side of me

April
I did 8 posts in total
I made some choices
and my days got better

May
I did 6 posts in total
I posted a recipe for Chicken Nacho soup which has been one of my most viewed pages on my blog!
I explained that I am not a normal teenage girl
I also listen ten things that I did over a week

June
I did 8 posts in total
I did a movie review on soul surfer
I listed my goals ( I will be doing an updated post soon!)
I also realised that I needed to focus on myself

July
I did 3 posts (the least amount of posts I did all year!) in total
To make up for it I did one big post
I also did a book review

August
I did 5 posts in total
I wrote about 8 things that you should never do
I wrote about closing a chapter

September
I did 5 posts in total
I posted about my kitten
I also posted about my choices

October
I did 9 posts in total
I wrote about what I learned in school
I mostly focused about school as I ended it
I did a review on the film Lemonade Mouth


November
I did 6 posts in total
I wrote about christmas and summer
I did a post just because I though it was a good idea

December
I have so far done 7 posts (including this one!) total
I did 2 reviews one on Terra Nova and one on Naomi Scott (who is an actress in Terra Nova)
I also did a gift guide for Christmas


So as you can see I did quite a few posts on a variety of topics :) so please go back and read these posts ( I chose my favourites out of each month)

Saturday, December 24, 2011

Merry Christmas!

I just wanted to take some to say Merry Christmas (as I have no intentions of blogging tomorrow) and thanks for reading my blog this past year. I hope you all have a great day tomorrow and enjoy yourselves. This year hasn't been easy for me and I thank you all for allowing me to vent here. I hope you will continue to read my blog (my aim is to post every 2 days next year so help me stick to that!) Finally I bring you a picture of my Christmas angel cat Maddy (I think she is dreaming of being left alone by me! :D).

Wednesday, December 21, 2011

Actress Review: Naomi Scott

What do Terra Nova and Lemonade Mouth both have in common? If you answer nothing you are wrong! They both star extremely talented up and coming actress Naomi Scott. I know its strange for me to review an actress but I think she is just so good! So here are a few things about Naomi (thanks to Wikipedia for helping me out!)
  • Her dad is Brittish but her mum is Indian (which gives her, her beautiful looks! But easy to say name! Haha)
  • She has an amazing voice! If you don't believe me check this clip out
  • She is English so in alot of interviews she will speak with an English accent but in both Terra Nova and Lemonade Mouth she has an American accent.
  • She is a Christian and has done missionary work (such as teaching English).

I find it hard to believe that she is only 18 (a year older than me) and was only discovered a few years ago! Watching Terra Nova (and Lemonade Mouth) it is hard to not love her! This is one of the few Actresses that I know that I will continue to follow and make an aim to see everything she is in! But for now I will be happy watching Terra Nova (which I intend to buy when it comes out on DVD) and wait for Lemonade Mouth 2 to come out! Naomi also has twitter so follow her if you get the chance.

Sunday, December 18, 2011

A few random things :)

I honestly can't be bothered writing a whole post so I'm just going to do a few things in dot form:

  • Christmas is in a week, getting exited now!
  • I have twitter, well I have always had twitter but I have just decided to use it and changed my name to ErinsAntics, so follow me if you want and keep up with my crazy life.
  • I made cupcakes for Sunday School today and added a bit to much food colouring to the icing so the kids went crazy, but hey the cupcakes tasted and looked good, so no complaining.
  • In 3 weeks I am going camping, I am so ready for a break, most of the time I just read and catch up with people (there is a beach mission on when we go so I am friends with alot of the leaders of the teens). The pick is of the first time I went to the campsite, I have changed alot since then!
  • Speaking of reading, I asked for books for Christmas this year as I have nothing to read and my bookshelf is empty (it is due to the fact my little sis decided to raid it for books to read). My parents have actually ordered the books (on friday) so now I just have to wait for them to arrive (hopefully by this friday!).
  • I have four nerf guns in my wardrobe which I have to hide from my Dad till Christmas day, its tempting as I want to shoot things. Basically my little sis bought my Dad one for Christmas and Mum decided to buy her and me and my sisters one to fight against him. Christmas day will be epic!

Wednesday, December 14, 2011

Gift Guide

With Christmas in just one and a half weeks away, I thought I should do a gift guide :) with picks for a variety of different types of people:

For the baker :
As many of you know I love Bakerella and today I managed to find her latest creation Cake Pops Kit, this includes the following: Lollipop sticks, a stand, ribbon, bags to package them in and tags to put on the pops. I got mine from Big W for around $17 but you get it from Amazon here for only $13.57 :)

For the Tech bunny:

You can never go wrong with an iTunes card in my books! With heaps of music to choose from, it will keep them entertained for ages.

For the little sis:
I have two younger sisters and I did this idea for my youngest sis who is starting high school next year. In a small make up bag I put the following:
Deodorant, bandaids, lip balm, bobby pins, a pack of gum and a few other goodies, the aim is for her to be able to put it her school bag next year and she will always be prepared for anything.

For the child at heart:
Two words Nerf Gun! This is bound to entertain them for hours :) Heres a tip though buy one for yourself so you have some way to fight back at them when the target you (which they will if its not you it will be the cat!)!

For the cat/animal lover:
Buy them a cute calender featuring the animal of their choice. Every one uses calenders and there are so many featuring cute animals around.

These are just a few ideas, remember people only seem hard to buy for at first, if you are ever really stuck talk to someone close to them to get ideas or if the worst comes to the worst buy them a gift card and a block of chocolate!

Monday, December 12, 2011

Tv Show Review: Terra Nova

I thought I would do a TV show review today just for the sake of it. In case you haven't noticed I updated my 'about me' section on the side of this blog, and you will see that I am not just addicted to Glee but now also Terra Nova, so it seems fitting that I do a review on Terra Nova. Yes I am aware the Terra Nova is the complete opposite of Glee in many ways, but I love it!

About:
Terra Nova is set in the future, but the setting is in the past (makes sense?), the year is 2149 and most of the animal and plant life is extinct because of the polution. Scientists have figured out a way to send people back in time 85 million years ago (when dinosaurs roamed the earth), to change the future and what has happened. The show is based around the Shannon family who have come to Terra Nova on the 10th Pilgrimage.

Why I love it:
I have never been big on shows or movies to do with dinosaurs but I decided to give it a go and was hooked. The charcters and plot lines are very unoriginal yet easy to relate to, also everything is very realistic and the technology is what you would imagine (and hope!) we would have in around a 138 years from now.
It was filmed in Queensland Australia (which is a tropical rainforrest environment) so the environment is very realistic too (lots if ferns and old leafy trees!). Every episode puts me on the edge of my seat and unlike some shows where I tend to walk away during it, I stay glued to the screen.
Also one of my favourite Actresses Naomi Scott stars in it and plays the oldest daughter, Maddy.

Something funny: According to my friend (who is an expert on Nerf guns) the guns they use are actually Nerf guns just painted black with a few bits added on. Many sites confirm this and if you don't believe it check this site out. Now I just want to know is that in between takes do the cast load up the guns and have a fight?!

I highly reccomend you watch it, if you get the chance (please note it is currently not airing in Australia, but will be on again next year).

Friday, December 9, 2011

Six Billion Secrets

Everyone has secrets, some that they feel the need to share and others that get hidden away and don't come out until something happens that reminds us of them. One of my favourite sites is Six Billion Secrets which is a site where people can post their secrets (not with their real names if they don't want) and people can read and comment on them in a non judgemental way.

The other day one of my friends and I were discussing this site over facebook and she said how depressing it was and why didn't the people just get help for their problems. This hurt me alot more than it should, for the following reasons: one some of the secrets are depressing but alot are uplifting, secondly some people can't afford to get help or don't want to own up for the fact that they have problems, and thirdly sometimes you need to get something off your chest but don't know who talk to for fear of being judged this site allows you to do all this. To me the site isn't depressing, it shows me that there are people with bigger problems who need help and that there is hope in this world among the darkness of it all. I'm not saying everyone should like the site, I just think that you shouldn't judge a site the first time you see it and that everything is not all it seems.

Monday, December 5, 2011

No Regrets

At the beginning of the year my New Years Resolution was to a guy free year, that meant that I wasn't going to date anyone. I wanted to focus on me and getting through my last year of high school and getting into TAFE (all of which I did). But looking back on my New Years Resolution I realise that I just wanted to live this year with no regrets and a part of me knew that if I got involved with a guy I would have some regrets. I admit that I did get side tracked at the beginning of the year, but I didn't break my resolution and instead those experiences made me stronger. I wanted to live my life with no regrets and I have. I have tried my hardest in every subject and proved to not only myself but others that I could acheive my dreams. So when it comes the time to make a New Years Resolution for next year decided to live with no regrets you might just suprise yourself with what you can do.

Thursday, December 1, 2011

Summer

Today is the first day of Summer and on my favourite radio station they asked their listeners what they loved and hated most about Summer and to text in their answers, I wasn't able to at the time but I thought I would list what I love and hate about Summer here.

Love:
  • Christmas is just around the corner.
  • Swimming.
  • Camping with the family.
  • Being able to entertain people in the evening.
  • The sun rises early which makes me want to get out of bed.
  • Being able to wear skirts and dresses.
  • Eating icecream and icypoles.
  • My hair getting naturally bleached by the sun.
  • Water fights with my sisters (and sometimes Dad).
Hate:
  • The flies and bugs that come out in the evening (some how flies always go up my nose!).
  • When is gets over 35 degrees for days and there is no end in sight.
  • Sunburn.
  • When is gets so hot that the only thing you can do is lie under the air conditioner.
  • Girls wearing bikinis (and various other clothing) that barely cover them, so that they are hanging out of them.
  • Bush fires, here in Australia we have had our fair share of natural disasters over the past few years including floods, and the Black Saturday fire. Summer is just the worst time for bush fires, I have seen the damage that they can do and its shocking! 



So there is what I love and dislike about Summer. Do you have anything that you love or hate about Summer? 

Wednesday, November 30, 2011

Didn't know what to post

I am sorry for not posting for a while but I honestly didn't know what to post, I felt I should do a post on graduating but at same time I felt that I had done alot of posts on leaving school and didn't want to add to it (as I would just be repeating myself). Life has been hectic lately and will hopefully slow down soon (then speed up due to Christmas), so I will beable to post more frequently and will get more inspiration for posts. But for now I am exhausted and ready for bed (I have been on my feet most of the day and my legs are aching).

Friday, November 11, 2011

Is it to early for a Christmas post?

I can honestly say I love Christmas, I mean its my favourite time of year. But as much as I love the actual day, I love the days leading up to it, I love going into the shopping centres and seeing everything decked out and seeing all the christmas things for sale (there are certain shops that I will avoid all year round but will go into in December just to see the displays) and displays. I love Christmas shopping choosing the perfect gift for someone special (I always start early and am almost finished I only have to buy one more thing and I am done) and wrapping it and placing it under the tree. I love how the persons face lights up once they have unwrapped the gift. I mean Christmas day combines two of my favourite things: Giving and Receiving, I actually think I enjoy giving presents rather than recieving them which is why I always buy things for people just because. I love seeing the house decked out in all the decorations and how it has a different smell and feel to it! Mum and I can never make Christmas small, we always plan everything down to the food. I love listening to Christmas music and can't wait to get out Glee's Christmas album and buy the next one (I mean my favourite show and time of year?!), I swear its all I listen to for 6 weeks leading up to Christmas. I love receiving cards in the mail and putting them up everywhere. But most of all I love celebrating the fact that Jesus was born and that he would eventually save us. Yesterday when I was in the shops I saw a Christmas card that said "Keep Calm Jesus Is Coming" I mean the message is so true, and the fact is that is what we celebrate each year at Christmas that Jesus did come to save us from our sins and he will return again. I honestly want to frame that card, because the message rings true not just at Christmas but for the whole year.

Thursday, November 10, 2011

Introducing Barcode's Drawings!

I have this friend, she's pretty awesome and artistic like really artistic, if I recall she started drawing in year 6 and never looked back :). So every week (hopefully) she is going to send me a picture to post, sometimes I will write a poem or something but this post is just about introducing her! Her artist name is Barcode (not her real name of course). This is one of her favourite pictures to date and its really good and detailed! I am hoping some day she will sell them and I can say I knew her when she first started!

Just Because

I am currently in the works of trying to do a weekly art/writing post with my friend who is so talented with art, so hopefully that will happen next week in the mean time I have stolen this post idea from Katie (over at Loves Of Life)

Guilty Pleasure?
I would have to say watching kids shows and movies aimed at kids. I mean they always seem to make me laugh, and more times than not my sisters watch them with me.

Recent Splurg?
Nothing for myself! Christmas presents I have almost finished buying them for everyone I just need to pick up one more item and I am done. Though I am hoping to get a new phone in the next day or two (its been playing up and the battery isn' holding charge as well as it used to). Though it will be on a post paid plan meaning I pay $29 a month for two years and get credit and what not.

In Bulk I Buy?
Nothing, though I do like to stock up on M&Ms when they are on sale so maybe that.

My Go-To Flower?
Geraldton Wax, I love it and when ever it starts blooming I always pick a big bunch of it and put it on the kitchen table. Its my Mum's favourite to :)

Comfort Food?
Chocolate, it makes me happy :)

For Breakfast?
What evers in the fridge, but I do love waffles and scrambled eggs on toast.

For Dinner?
I'm not fussy so what ever Mum is cooking, which varies though I do love steak and salad in summer. I'm not a big fan of cooked vegies so when we have salad I eat alot of it.

Love/Hate Relationship With?
Work, I love the money just sometimes I really don't want to do it.

Can't Stop Watching?
Glee, Degrassi: The Next Generation, Modern Family and Terra Nova.

Saturday, November 5, 2011

10 things that have made me smile this past week :)

So its Spring at the moment only right now it look likes a cold winters day (only I am wearing a T-shirt and sandals with jeans because I can't be bothered changing) because it is bucketing down! I mean isn't Spring the month when you break out all your cute summer dresses, tops and skirts and what not :) and buy a pair of bathers (which you really needed last summer but couldn't affoard till now. Trust me being big busted is a curse bathers start at $100 and can cost up to $300 for one pair! Mine only cost $180 which isn't to bad) and (try to) get in shape for summer? But yet its raining (heaps!), don't me wrong I love rain, I just want to break out my summer gear and go swimming, not be stuck in the house with nothing to do. So to try and lift up my moods I am going to list 10 things that have happened this past week that have made me smile:
  1. My English exam is over! I know I bombed out at the reading section, but hey I think I passed it.
  2. Got a job a proper paying job that counts as a job (not a paper round). Its at my local Subway store and the boss is really nice and pretty much hired me on the spot. So now I can pay for tafe.
  3. I have done half my Christmas shopping (yes its early but I like to be organised). Note taken that I have to buy for 4 people (my parents and two sisters), but still its halfway done!
  4. Did I meantion my exam is over! So that means I will never have to wear my summer uniform dress again.
  5. I broke out my summer dresses and skirts if only for a few days.
  6. Glee came back on (Damien from The Glee Project was so good :D).
  7. Glee is realeasing a 2nd Christmas album I loved the first one (so did my mum and sisters) so I can't wait for the 2nd one (due out later this month).
  8. Chickpea has been allowed outside and has been enjoying attempting to catch various things that fly (including moths and flys).
  9. Christmas is coming!
  10. All the Christmas displays in the shops are very shiny and pretty :)

Monday, October 31, 2011

My Blog My Story

Sometimes when I need to breath and relax I read my past blog posts, its strange how I get so caught up in writing them that I never get read them and the story held within the post. Its the best story of all, I can tell how I was feeling that day just through the post. My blog is story of my life so far and its personal to me. The reality is that I blog for ME only ME I don't care if I don't have any readers its a place for me to poor my heart out to the world. I want to make a mark on this world and this is one of my ways of doing it no matter how small it is. So here are few reasons why I started to blog:
  • One of my (adult) friends did it and I thought I would give it go, though I haven't blogged regulary until this past year.
  • I needed a place to share my thoughts and views.
  • I wanted to further my writing and this was the best way (for me) to do it.
  • I thought it would be great to look back on past posts to see how much I have grown.
These are just are a few of my reasons I would defiently consider blogging if you wanted a creative outlet. There is no limit to what you can or can't blog! I know of blogs that are a story and each post is a new chapter, there are recipe and craft blogs. Its really up to you.

Tuesday, October 25, 2011

Lessons I Have Learnt From School!

Have you ever wished life could have a pause button? I mean right now I seriously do! Its funny how that throughout your schools years you want them to finish but when you get to the point of them finishing you just wish they wouldn't end. Its sad to say goodbye to them, but I know its time to. So what better way to say goodbye to school than to write a list of lessons that I have learnt during my high school years to pass on to the next new year:
  • Ask questions! I wish I had learnt this lesson earlier, teachers never get mad when you ask questions (unless they are stupid or not anything to do with the topic).
  • Don't leave anything to the last minute. This is a bad habit to get into and will cost you marks and grades.
  • Get enough sleep! Sleeping in class is a big no no in anyones book and it will only cause the teachers to keep an extra special eye on you during class.
  • Getting in trouble isn't the end of the world. Trust me everyone will get in trouble at least once or twice in school and its no big deal.
  • Choose classes that you like and you think you will actually use in real life. Don't choose them cause all your friends are doing them or your teacher tells you mum that you should do it (this happened to me with Politics and Law, if it wasn't for the fact that the teacher was awesome I would've left the class).
  • Learn how to annoy your teachers and do it every class. Fun annoy though, not get in trouble annoy. For example one of my teachers hated cats so every assignment this year I found a way to involve something to do with cats (he had me for two classes so it was a lot of cats!) and it became our joke. Because of that class was always a bit more fun and I looked forward to it.
  • Start a blog (just kidding only if you want). I did and I found it helped to clear my mind and also improved my english and typing skills. Don't do it for anyone though just you, it doesn't even have to be about a certain topic Erin's Antics is a mix of everything and I like it that way, it gives me freedom so I can write whatever I feel like.
  • Read books. This improves your English skills and also allows you to get better insight to the world around you. I love reading as it gives me an escape into different worlds and places.
  • Finally you get what you give. Don't expect to get an A in a subject that you put little work into, work and try your hardest and you will get far in school (and life and Narnia!).

School is a great place and allows you to travel far in life, though at times it might seem overwhelming but make the most of it. One day you might even find yourself missing it :)

Saturday, October 22, 2011

It's Over!

Well it's over! No more school for me, no more homework, no more early mornings and no more school uniform (though I have to wear it a few more times to school events such as graduation etc) and its sad. I am sadder than what I thought I would be and I know its going to feel weird not going to school on Monday and I will miss it (in some twisted way). I know I am ready to move forward though, it just seems like next year will be full of new things: new church, new routine, new places to know and I admit I am looking forward to it, it's just that I'm dreading leaving the old behind.

So whats next for me? Well I am trying to find a job to pay for TAFE next year and have applied to around 7! Heres the thing you would think that if you don't get the job they would tell you well they don't out of the 7 two of them have told me I didn't get the job and that was find but the others haven't! I mean whats the time period of finding out if you will ge the job? Or should they ring you up or contact you to tell you no haven't got the job? Its confusing! Its going to be weird knowing that I'm not a high school student anymore! 

Thursday, October 20, 2011

School

How can you say goodbye to something you know like the back of your hand.
How can you say goodbye to teachers who have made you who you are.
How can you say goodbye to a place that is a part of you.

How can you feel happy yet sad to leave a place that sometimes you forced yourself to go to.
How can you feel nervous yet exited for the next step in your life.
How can you feel realived to leave a place that you know so well, yet has been a struggle to get to know at times.

How can you miss a place even though you haven't left it yet.
How can you miss the people in the place even though you will see them again.
How can you miss the early mornings and work yet when you have (mostly/sometimes) hated it for as long as you can remember.

How can you trust what the future will hold.
How can you trust that the decisions you will make will be the right ones.
How can you trust yourself that you won't forget the memories that you have created.

Tomorrow is my last day of school EVER and these are just my thoughts on it, which I needed to spill :)

Friday, October 14, 2011

5 more days

I have 5 more days of school left and its strange I don't want it to end, I really don't know why considering school days aren't something I have enjoyed (I was the student that was always bullied) but for some reason I am sad to see them go. Maybe its because it has been the one consistent thing that has happened for the past 14 years of my life? Or maybe because deep down I actually like school? I don't know why but I am sad to see them. So here are a few things I am going to miss about school:
  • The teachers, most of the teachers I have had have been good and kinda cool, always willing to help out and have been great mentors to me.
  • The peer groups I have made, its sad that after this year that they will all be faces on my facebook page whom I haven't seen for awhile and I mean yes they are the people I am graduating with but after a few years I know (and its sad to think about) I will have lost touch with most (or a good group) of them and the next time I will see them is at my schools 10 year get together (will we even have one of them?!) where we show each other pictures of our husbands/partners and families (and in my case cats haha) and brag about the jobs we have.
  • Not being able to muck around and annoy (and drive them mad) the teachers. There are a few teachers that I like to annoy on a regular basis and its going to be sad not being to annoy them,I don't know if they will miss me though!
  • Seeing my friends every day. It means that I will actually have to make an effort to see them.
But of course there are a few things that I won't miss about school such as:
  • The early mornings!
  • Sport/PE I am suprised that I haven't failed it at all, considering how bad I am at it.
  • Exams self explained exams are the worst things to do at school.
  • Bullying, all work places have a strict no bullying policy so its safe to say I won't be bullied once school is over.
  • Lectures from teachers.
So with school coming to an end, I know I will leave it with mixed feelings but its time to focus on the future.

Movie Review: Lemonade Mouth

I felt that I should do a movie review and its only fitting that I should a Disney one being the school holidays.
Lemonade Mouth is along the lines of the common Disney teen flick you know the ones Camp Rock, High School Musical, just to name a few. But with a few major differences one they don't break into song randomly (ok they do but thats in a music room so its not in the middle of class which doesn't count) and the other, the music is actually good (and decent), its so good infact I downloaded the album and am loving it!
What do you get when you take 5 kids who find them selves in dentention and have ears for music, all completely different and relateable, a principal who is a jerk, and organic lemonade? You get Lemonade Mouth! This film is great as all the actors are unknown (though you may recognise 2 from small cameos on Disneys Wizards of Waverly Place) and each have real talent. Its hard not to love the charcters. There is a Lemonade Mouth 2 in the works so I am looking forward to see how that turns out.

Who would enjoy it? It you liked Camp Rock and High School Musical  also if you like music.
Genre: Family, musical
Best Bit: When they perform on stage for the first time at the Halloween Bash.
Worst Bit: When they can't perform at a singing contest due to injuries (and sicknesses).
Would I watch it again? Yes I have already watched it 3 times!

I love this film and I highly recommend it!

Saturday, October 8, 2011

What we're looking for

I have always been fairly organised (I rarely forget anything) but for some reason I am prone to loosing things! I mean I keep track of things in my head and some things have no set spot, like my phone or iPod so I am consistently misplacing them! Though for some items they have set spots like my craft things (in a create under my bed) and books (on my bedside table or near it, or school bad depending if I'm currently reading the book), so I rarely misplace those unless of course I forget to put them away which does happen (I'm a teenager I get lazy). But when I do loose items, its normally after I stop looking I find them.

This is also the same for when I am shopping for items. For the past few weeks I have been looking for a summer dress to wear places, I looked in just about every shop I could afford (I had birthday money) and had given up hope on ever finding that perfect dress (that suited me and made me feel beautiful), so I gave up and thought to myself I don't need a dress I have heaps of nice dresses (ok one is good for everyday wear but thats beside the point). Well what do you know the day after I gave up looking I found one! It is perfect for me I mean yes I need to wear a camosole under it and it needs to be shortened but I love it!

The way I see it is that we all give up to soon with various things. Sometimes what we're looking for is there, its just hidden.

Thursday, October 6, 2011

Boys: When does a crush go on for too long?

For some reason when ever I talk to my friends the topic of boys always come up -.- but heres the thing the topic only comes up with my friends who haven't had boyfriends yet but lots of crushes. Due to this I have heard many theroys about moving on from guys (and crushes) such as:
Theory #1 one of my friends says that you never move on from crushes you just crush on another guy and thats how you move on.
Theory #2 Another one says crushes are stupid and you can like a guy but you shouldn't obesess over him and you can like many guys at one time (which I think is healthy as long as you don't date more than one guy during a period of time) and that if the guys no interested you just gradually move on.

Whats my therory? Well its a bit of both of the above :) like and crush are the same thing in my books and mean that you are interested in a guy and its healthy if you have more than one, at times I have had one realistic (say a guy at school) and one not realistic (like a celebrity).

Now onto to the moving on part I am currently not interested in any guys and am happy being single, (I have never had any actual relationships though I have been more than friends with a few guys (which didn't equal anything) thats about it). So that rules out the moving on part of theory #1, but I do agree with the moving on theory of theory #2, but sometimes moving on isn't that easy (I should know) as guys send out mixed messages and moment they act like they're interested in you and the next they are happy being friends, so how do you move on in a situation like this? I think in order to move on in a situation like that you need to do the following:
  1. Think about it and talk to some of your friends (if you can talk to some mutral friends of you and the guy you like and ask what they think about the situation).
  2. Think about some more and talk to your mum (or an older friend) I mean she has been through all of this and mums do have some of the best advice on guy problems out there.
  3. If you are in doubt ask the guy! You may have to do this a few times to get a clear answer but it will be worth it in the long run!
But heres another thing how long is too long to be crushing or liking on a guy? It all depends if a guy has no interest in you what so ever 1 month to 2 months is fine, but if the guy is showing interest in you 4 months to a year is normal (but not ideal). But every girl is different, but sometimes you just have to face the facts and move on no matter what your heart is saying. A crush on a guy should never distract you from your friends, school work, family, social life and mental well being and the bottom line is if the crush is doing that MOVE ON it will save you in the long run!
*please note these are my opinions I am not forcing them on anyone I just wanted to get that off my mind.
(Image is from the wonderful blog Loves Of Life go check it out :D)

Tuesday, October 4, 2011

The Truth

I want you to know the truth
But the truth hurts.
 I don't want to tell you the truth
But then the truth will hurt even more.
 I care for you.
Which is why I don't want to tell you the truth.
I feel the truth may be to much for you to handle.
But you need to hear it.
I want to make the truth disappear.
But thats no possible.
I want to hate the truth
But I can't because the truth is the truth and it will follow you where ever you go.

Thursday, September 29, 2011

To many choices

Since I started cooking (I think I was 9 or 10) everyone has been telling me that I should become a chef or work in a cafe, but heres the thing I have never wanted to. I have always wanted to be a florist (my hayfever would make working with flowers impossible), or vet nurse (that idea cleared out of my head when I was 13 don't ask why) or childcare worker (I have since decided I don't have the pateince to be one and kids tire me out quickly). But now when I had to make my big decision on what to apply to a tafe I went the complete opposite of what I had always wanted to be or what alot of people were telling me to be I applied to buisness administration (and got accepted in! Sorry it still doesn't seem real to me!) and have decided to become a receptionist or work in customer service.

The fact was none of the above things were 'me' and cooking has always been my hobby and I have never wanted it to become a chef because cooking has been one of the many forms of relaxion for me (writing, reading books, listening to music and sometimes watching TV are my other ways of relaxion) so to me I didn't seem the point of making something that has been about relaxion into my career. I mean yes one day I may work in cafe or be a chef but for now I am more than happy about my decision to become a reception and work in customer service. I chose what was right for me now and what I knew I could do, I was confident in my decision and there wasn't any 'What ifs' floating in my mind, I applied to a course which I WANTED TO DO no one else and knew I could handle. My mum did back me up on this (as did my dad and younger sisters, one of them told me that she could see me being a receptionist) but in the end I wasn't pressured into applying to anything that I didn't want to do or couldn't see myself doing in the future.

The thing is whether your applying to university or tafe its your choice no one elses and that means you have a right to tell people to back down and say this is what I want to do its my life and my future. No one else will be living your future only you so make it count to yourself.

Thursday, September 22, 2011

Just a post

I'm sorry I haven't been blogging lately, life has been hectic to say the least I have an english exam next wednesday (which I am not looking forward to!) so I have started to revise for that (you know read up on all the texts and films you study in the class and what not) so instead of boring you with how hectic my life is at the moment here are few things I am loving at the moment:
  • Glee Season 3, loved the first episode last night. I am so glad Blaine moved to McKinley high, he and Kurt make a cute couple! As for what this season I'm not to sure but I am hoping Quinn comes back to New Directions she is my favourite charcter and has a great voice.
  • Waffles, I got a waffle maker for my birthday and loving how easy they are to make. I love them simple just Cream and Maple syrup for me, but tonight I am making savoury cheese waffles with mexican mince and sour cream cheese sauce, so I am hoping they go well.
  • The film Its Kind Of A Funny Story its not what you expect from a film aimed at teenagers and I love it! If more people made films like this then I would be happy!
  • Eric by Shaun Tan I studied Shaun Tan in art and loved his work. I recently bought his book, Eric and love the drawings, I could stare at them for ages plus its small size means that its extra cute!
These are a few of the things that I am loving at the moment, I am hoping to post more often in the coming weeks depending on the speed of my life :)

Saturday, September 10, 2011

A lesson from the Glee Project

I have become hooked on the Glee Project! I mean yes I am a Gleek (guilty as charged) and love Glee ok I am OBESESSED with Glee (helloooo? I have all the DVD's went to see the movie the 2nd night it came out and have all the CD's and listen to them frequently, oh and did I mention? I have (my parents are annoyed about this) managed to turn my sister Megan into a Gleek!) and as it is currently not on, the Glee Project is the next best thing.
I love watching it, I mean these are everyday kids with real talent. Since Cameron left, I have been going for Samuel and as much as I hate/loath dredlocks he can pull them off and makes him look awesome (I would say cute, but he doesn't really suit the word!). So last nights episode each of the final four had to perform to Ryan Murphy (the brains behind Glee) and the main writer (I think he also co produces and directs Glee aswell) and Ryan asked Samuel how he hadn't broke (down) yet or had a hard time on the show. Know I knew Samuel was a Christian (he told the judges last week that he had Jesus tattooed on the back of his neck and a few bible verses also tatooed on him) and this just confirmed it, he confidently told the judges 'Just because I want to be here, doesn't mean that God wants me to be here' I was amazed. I mean I think this rings true to everyone out there that just because we want doesn't mean God wants it for us and he knows best!

Tuesday, September 6, 2011

Chickpea

I have decided that because I am nice, I will finally post a few photos of Miss Chickpea also known as Chickers, Chickapea, Little One and CHICKPEA!!!!! Though we only use the last one when we are mad at her for looking at the birds or fish or getting on the birdcage. The top one was a photo taken today and the bottom one was taken a week after we got her, both were taken on my sisters ipod touch, so I am sorry for the bad quality of the photos. My mum has better photos but they are still on her camera so I may post them later.If I get around to asking for her camera.
Though Chickpea is a little rascal at times but we still love her, she makes our lives very entertaining and we couldn't imagine not having her around.

Thursday, September 1, 2011

Families and a post for Maddy

I have 4 families, you see sure I'm not biologically related to every single person in each of the families, but still I have 4 families. I have my immeadiate family which includes my mum, dad and two sisters. Then I have my extended family which includes, my aunties, uncles, grandparents and cousins. Then I have my friend family, which is the family I have 'made', it has all my friends in it and its the family I have chosen to be apart of. Finally I have my christian family, I only know a small amount of the people in this family, as it is made up of all the people who are christians on this earth. Each of these families are combined in areas and sure in the last family I may not have met every single person in it, but I know that they will help in times of need.

Today is someone in my christian family's birthday, her name is Kelly, and though I have never met her, I read her blog and feel like I know her in person. For her birthday Kelly requested that everyone blog about her daughter Maddy whom she lost to SIDS at the beginning of the year, to get the message out about SIDS. Maddy was (and still is) a beautiful girl and I know she is missed on earth, Kelly is one of the strongest people I have ever known, each morning she gets up and continues with her life even when, a huge part of it is missing. I just know Maddy is very proud of her mum and dad for spreading the word about sids and continuing their lives. So on that note here is a beautiful picture of Maddy. Please go over to her blog and say hi, her blog is one of the best outthere!

Friday, August 26, 2011

I Blog

I don't hide the fact that I blog, I love it when people hear of me having a blog and tell me that they must check it out. But here's the thing, sometimes when I tell people I blog they give me a look, a look that says 'why on earth do you blog your just teenage girl and who reads your blog'. Ok for starters its a free world and secondly I blog more for my sake than anyone elses and there are people who read it, I have a number of friends who enjoy reading and often tell me I love reading it my down time. I mean I don't care what people think, but please don't judge me or ask questions like: Who reads your blog? Why do you have a blog? etc. I mean everyone is opened to opinions in this world right? And this is just my way of sharing mine, also its great to blow of steam when I feel mad and fraustrated. Also its the other side of me the side I don't show to the world.

Ok changing subjects what TAFE course should I do or apply too, I think business administration, mum says childcare, dad says hospitallity (cooking etc) or to take a year off. Heres the thing I have decided to apply to 3 courses to do with business and 2 do to do with childcare but none to do with hospitallity! I am really confused so what should I do? Leave your answer in the comments (or facebook me it if your my friend on facebook) :)

Friday, August 19, 2011

8 funny things you should never ever do!

8 funny things you should never ever do! (cause 10 is a over rated number)
  1. Zone off while driving, yes today I drove into a curb cause I forgot to put the car out of reverse, but hey the rest of the time went fine.
  2. Skip on slate floors while wearing stockings, I did this today and stacked it in front of my Mum (I litterally flew 2 meters), landed on my knees and got a grazed knee and stocking burn, I have learnt my lesson.
  3. Walk through the school right next door to your schools quadrangle (court yard) when their eating lunch alone without a teacher (don't ask, a teacher told me to help so I did without thinking of what it would do to my ego).
  4. Decide Trig is hard without having a good teacher teach it to you first.
  5. Dance around when an add for the Glee Project comes on.
  6. Pat your sister on the head this makes her inform you that she isn't a cat.
  7. Teach a bird how to wolf whisle, it may be fun for a while but it will drive you mad after a few weeks of it.
  8. Put toliet paper within a kittens reach this equals big mess.

Saturday, August 13, 2011

Yesterday and Today

Yesterday I wrote down all my factions year 12 results down at my sports carnival.
Yesterday was my last ever sports carnival.
Yesterday I had 2 red fanta slushees within 4 hours of each other, and it was only this morning I realised I had 2 of them.
Yesterday I saw Glee The 3D Movie
Yesterday my friend fell asleep in Glee The 3D Movie
Yesterday my whole 'eat healthy say no to most foods containing sugar or fat' diet plan went out the window.

Today I am feeling the effects of having 2 slushies
Today I want to slap someone, because he told me there is no God only science, when he was raised a Christian.
Today I am glad I will never have to go to another sports carnival.
Today I feel glad that I can finally move on.
Today I am feeling like myself for the first time in ages.

Thursday, August 4, 2011

Beginning to close a chapter

I really shouldn't be blogging at the moment as I have so much stuff to do (I have friends coming over for dinner tonight, for as mum likes to put it my first ever dinner party), but my sister is blasting Jonas Brothers (its the soundtrack from the 3D movie so lots of screaming girls!) so I like to think that this is to save my sanity. Anyway life is finally turning around for me, I have been alot happier lately and its all because I got some answers, ye the answers did hurt but I can finally move on which means no dwelling on the past! I feel so free, its strange but letting go of the past helped free me.
Anyway the week is almost over and it feels like a blur I want it to slow down but I don't, I can't wait to see what the future holds for me. Because in a few months one chapter closes, my school chapter, and another chapter will open. I know it will be hard closing this chapter but I am so ready for it, really ready for it. But I am sad too because apart of me doesn't want to let go. But only time will tell, what the future holds.

Tuesday, August 2, 2011

I thought

I thought I knew you
I guess I don't
I thought we were good friends
But now I can't even call us friends
I thought things were fine between us
But I know there not
I thought I could move on and forget about all this
But I can't
I thought this was just a bump in the road
But its a mountain
I thought lots of things, but it seems none of them were true

Friday, July 29, 2011

Recap of the past few weeks

Sorry for not posting in a while but I have been caught up in life, the school holidays were great, it was nice to just relax and forget about thing for a while (like blog posting! Sorry again!) and then I caught up in going back to school and now my mums away till monday which means I have to do all the cooking and dishes and whatever else she does (like waking us up in the morning, lets just say the alarm didn't go off and all of us work half an hour later than we were supposed to have woken up!).  Anyway to update you are on my life here are ten things that have happened in the past 3 weeks :)
  1. I (or more like my family) have a new addition to the family, she is small, cute,fluffly and meows . . . we have a kitten (so in total thats 4 cats now if you are keeping count), she is the cutest most cheekiest thing in the world. We all love her, I will post a pic when I can get my mum's camera. Her name is Chickpea if your wondering =^.^=
  2. I have gotten hooked on the Glee Project those guys are just so talented! I can't wait to see who wins I love Cameron, so I really want him to win :)
  3. I have gone back to school, this will be my last full term of school, so I am kinda sad about that.
  4. I have realised how much time flys! I mean it seems like only yesterday (when it really was 2 months ago) I was organising friends coming over to dinner and now in a few days they will be coming! Here I am thinking I have heaps of time to work out a menu and everything and now I dont!
  5. Its been raining heaps! Which is nice, we need the rain so bad at the moment we have had such a dry past few years so its nice to have some rain.
  6. I have started doing exercises to flatten my tummy and they are working! I aim to do them every night but it seems to be every 2nd night since school has gone back. My jeans which fitted me fine at the beginning of winter, I now have to wear a belt with, but I'm not complaining :)
  7. I have gotten back into reading, I have been re reading a few books, but also a few new ones. Though I always read, sometimes I do it cause it habit, but I have found a few books that I am enjoying to read which is nice.
  8. I have been making lots of desserts, and experimenting with a few of them. My favourite one is a caramel tart recipe with I will try and post soon, it is sooo good :)
  9. I have been keeping on top of all my school work and passing every class, I thought I would fail an english essay as I couldn't think straight (no one could in my class that day) and I got 53% which is bad but its a pass.
  10. I went down south for a few days which was nice, I mean we got rained on, but apart from that, it wasn't too bad

Monday, July 11, 2011

Book Review: The Book of a Thousand Days by Shannon Hale

Ok so currently I am meant to be taking it easy which means no running around or walking much cause of the toe situation so I have decided to do a book review which I haven't done for alooooong time :)

The Book of a Thousand Days by Shannon Hale (Bloomsbury Publishing PLC)
Genre: Fantasy but with a bit of romance and adventure thrown in.
Age targeted at: My sister who is (almost) 13 loves it and so did my mum and me (aged almost 17), but I think as young as a 10 year old would so it. So ages 10 years plus.
This is a great read, its written in a fairytale manner but different. A princess is locked in a tower with her mucker (forrest person) maid for 7 years as she refuses to marry whom her father chose for her (kinda extreme when you think about it). The tower has no light so they have no way of telling whether it is day or not, then one day a prince comes and promises that he will break them out of the tower which of course doesn't happen, mean while the princess orders her maid to pretend to be her, which means the prince thinks the maid is the princess and of course they fall in love, even though they can't be together. The book has quite a few twists and turns and doesn't end quite like you would think it should. Once you start this book you cannot put it down! I rate this 5 stars ***** out of 5 *****

Thursday, July 7, 2011

A random night post

So its 9.16 at night and I am sitting at the computer typing a blog post just for the sake of it. I honestly don't know why maybe cos theres too many thoughts swirling through my head?! This saturday I am getting my big left toe operated on, because its ingrown, I blame genectics my grandfather had them and he pasted them onto to my mother who in turn pasted them onto me and my sisters. So basically because of this, I have to put my foot up for 24 hours once the surgery has been done and then can't wear (enclosed) shoes for 2 weeks and to top it all off its the middle of winter has been a grand total of 15 degrees max the whole week, honestly I will be happy once its over. But hey I am on holidays as of this afternoon which means no school for 2 weeks (and 2 days not that I care), I am just looking forward to relaxing and enjoying myself, tomorrow I get to see my best friend Gem which will be great, then on tuesday its shopping (hopefully my toe isn't too sore!) and next friday we get to go away for a weekend yay! The holidays are looking great and I am more than ready for a relaxing 2 weeks. I am hoping this will give me more time to post so check back here often :)

Saturday, June 25, 2011

Don't Care

You know what? I don't care anymore, like at all, I don't care what people think of me or whats happening at school, I don't care about your problems. Because caring is one of the things that go me into this mess! Yes I care about certain things but heres the deal don't push your problems onto me, I need to tend to my problems first and then maybe if I have time I will care about yours. I need to focus on myself and no one else! Because for long time my problems have been consistently put down on the bottom of the list, you know the part of the never ending list? The part that never gets sorted? So for once I will focus on myself! I think that sounds fair to me! Honestly if you have any problems that you want sorted go talk to someone other than me, yes for certain people I will help them, but that will be on my terms no one elses!
Thanks for listening

Saturday, June 18, 2011

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUMMY

Today I awoke at 4.30am to my two cats fighting in my room.
Today I made choc chip muffins for breakfast.
Today is my Mummy's birthday :)
So Happy Birthday Mummy!!! Thanks for being there for me in all the hard times hope you have a great day :D <3 <3
Here is a quick family photo (my Mummy is in the dark blue shirt :D)
*May I point out that under no circumstances am I allowed to tell you my Mummy's age it is confidential also if I tell you the chances are my mother will find out and I will get in big trouble

Friday, June 17, 2011

Glee Finale Season 2 :D

Who watched the season finale of Glee the other night? I did and I loved it! In a sense I was glad that they came 12th instead of somewhere in the top 10 as that gives them something to aim for this coming season (season 3 which will probably air in september sometime going from when season 2 aired and everything I have read online has told me new episodes will air in Fall in America which is our Spring). I thought it was the perfect end to this season I loved how Finn and Rachel got back togeather I was really annoyed when they broke up halfway through this past season. Also the songs they sang were amazing I mean those guys are sooo talented! So here are my predictions for what will happen in season 3 (based on what I have read and my own theories):
  • Finn and Rachel will stay togeather they will have their struggles but will work through them.
  • Sam and Mercedes will be togeather for awhile but may break up (I'm not sure).
  • Quinn will get a new guy (they have mentioned that there will be 3 new charcters coming this season).
  • Blaine and Kurt will stay togeather but break up breifly and thenBlaine will transfer over to Mckinley as the competion between the two schools is to great, to save their relationship.
  • Will and Emma will get married and the glee club will perform at their wedding (I am being really hopeful here!)
  • They will win nationals or come 2nd or 3rd :)
Here are my predictions I will be sure to keep tabs to see if my predictions are close or true and update them here :)

Wednesday, June 15, 2011

Reasons why I am blasting Glee

Reasons why I am blasting Glee
  • I'm over everything! I want things for once to work out.
  • It is putting me in a better mood.
  • I can relate to the lyrics (Pretending and Get it Right are storys of my life right now)
  • It is cold and wet outside and I really don't want to brave the cold weather right now (though I soon will, to do papers).
  • It annoys my father.
  • Its better than studying.
Yep I'm in a bad mood

Sunday, June 12, 2011

A memory

I have an image memory in my mind one that came to me when I was folding my papers, I got reminded of it because my hands were freezing! So heres the image:
Its around 10.30 at night, its summer, we (about 10-15 people) are on rocks near the beach, you can here the water lapping on the rocks below.   As its down south its freezing around 5 degrees, the cold slices through us like a knife. Everyone is wearing jeans, and jackets, most are wearing enclosed shoes but some (maybe 2) are wearing thongs (flip flops). We are all sitting on the rocks staring up at the stars which light up the sky. Its silent for a while then we get talking, most of the time its about how cold it is or how beautiful the sky is. Then you* and your friend begin singing a bicycle built for two each taking turns saying one word, it makes me laugh. We then chat for a while and I make the comment 'How can you go bare foot, its freezing!' you laugh and say 'It's a tough job but someones got to do it.'
Thats the memory the one I can't seem erase and don't want to.
*you refers to a person whom I'm not going to name here.

Thursday, June 9, 2011

Not in control...anymore

I went to the doctor today and he gave me the answer I was expecting (as much I didn't want to hear it) wait and see how it goes and if the feelings don't stop after the next few months (when I have to see him anyway) we can look into other options. I get what he's saying but it just makes me feel helpless, I want to do something to stop these feelings but I can't, I just have ride it out and hope they end.

I told my mum this (my dad went with me as he sees the same doctor) and she told me how year 12 is a hard year for everyone no matter what subjects your doing. As you realise that at the end of the year whether you like it or not you won't be going to school anymore. This scares me as I really don't know what I am going to be doing next year, I mean I have some ideas but I don't know where I will be. I have always been someone who likes to be in control of situations and I admit I can be a control freak at times, so maybe this is why I am feeling like this because I'm no longer in control over things anymore. I don't know, but for someone who has always liked to be in control and knowing that I have no control over the future, the future scares me ALOT.

So for now I can only hope and pray these feelings disappear as I hate feeling this way!

Tuesday, June 7, 2011

Movie Review: Soul Surfer

Last night I went and saw the movie Soul Surfer, I first read the book when I was 12 and loved it! So I have been waiting for the movie for a while and it did not disapoint!
For those who haven't heard of Soul Surfer or Bethany Hamilton here is a quick overview of the story: Bethany is well on her way to becoming a pro surfer when she loses her arm in a shark attack, since then she has managed to become a pro surfer and spreads the word of god when ever and where ever she can. The movie shows the main events leading up to the attack and how it not only affected her but everyone around her. It also shows her many struggles in getting back on the board and being a pro surfer.
Best Bit: I LOVED the whole movie, it is a really great film, I loved how they included some christian artists on the sound track, such as Britt Nicole.
Worst Bit: Though the film was great it wasn't centered around god as much as the book or documentry but this is understandable.
Who to Bring: me, my mum and sisters went to see it and we all loved it, though there were 2 guys in the cinema who seemed to enjoy it too, so I think anyone will enjoy it.
Heres the link to the movie trailer here and the offical movie site here. So if you can please check it out you won't regret it!

Saturday, June 4, 2011

My Goals

I have realised that I need to set myself so to help stick to my goals I have decided to post them free places: My wardrobe door, my journal and my blog! I will keep you updated with how they are going once in a while (read under, when I remember!), so here are my goals:
  • Build my confidence.
  • Smile more.
  • Graduate high school.
  • Get into either TAFE or a traineeship, after school. Then get work in the area of Customer Service.
  • Put myself out there more.
I only chose 5 goals as anymore and I would find it hard to work towards them all and this way I can focus more on them.

Monday, May 30, 2011

Chicken Nacho Soup :D

It's been soup weather lately so tonight I volunteered to cook (knowing Mum she was probably going to ask me anyway as she was going out at 5.15pm), so for some reason I felt like soup, chicken taco soup (which I had never had in my life but I was feeling like it :D ), so after half an hour of looking up recipes I realised that none of the soup recipes worked for me (ie they were in a slow cooker or had waaay to many ingreadients some of which I have never heard of in my life!), so I went on pioneer woman one of my favourite cooking blogs and found this recipe which I adjusted to what I had in the pantry, in the end it was a lot different from the recipe so I have decided to call it (drum roll please!)...
Chicken Nacho Soup! Below is the recipe for it, I beg you try it out, everyone in my family loved it and it has already been requested to be made again, plus its gluten free so who can argue with that?!
Chicken Nacho Soup:
You will need:
500grms chicken thigh fillets defrosted
4 heaped teaspoons of cumin (start with 2 and add more to taste)
1 1/2 teaspoons of ground chilli powder (again you can add more of less to your taste)
2 teaspoons garlic granuals (or powder if you have it)
3 small or 1 1/2 large onions diced (it may seem alot but its not!)
2 cans (400 grms each total of 800grms) of kidney beans drained.
2 cups of frozen corn (I used one can of corn undrained then added a cup of frozen corn)
half a capsicum chopped finely
1 800grm can of chopped tomatos
6 tablespoons tomato paste
4 cups of water
2 1/2 cups of either chicken or vegetable stock (I used 1 teaspoon stock powder in 2 cups of water which worked well)
olive oil

To serve (all optional):
1 packet of corn chips (gluten free, ie plain)
1 tub of  sour cream
2 cups of cheese grated

What to do
Combine: Garlic granuals, chili powder and cumin set aside
preheat oven to 200 degrees, lay chicken on a pan and drizzle with olive oil, sprinkle with around 1/4 teaspoon of the cumin mix per thigh, place in oven and cook for around 25 minutes or until cooked. Chop cooked chicken up into small pieces set aside.
Heat 1 tablespoon of oil in pan and add onion and remaining spice mix, cook for 5 minutes then add chicken and capsicum.
Place remaining ingreadients (except the 'to serve' ones) and bring to boil.
Add more spices until you get the right taste (you can add crushed garlic and whole chilies if you want), you can also add more water and/or stock until you are happy with the consistency. Let simmer for 45 minutes tasting every now and then. Just before serving take off head and let it sit for 10 minutes (if you have time or you can serve it straight away)

To serve.
Place 2 ladles full of soup in each bowl, topping with sour cream and grated cheese. Sprinkle corn chips on the soup just before serving. Serve with a handle of corn chips if you want.
Enjoy!
This serves 8 people or 5 with seconds and some left over for the next days lunch!

Friday, May 27, 2011

Mirror Songs

It's scary how songs can mirror your life at times? I mean honestly it seems like Glee does it to me all the time it started with, Get It Right and now they have done it again with Pretending. I mean its scary how they sing songs that mirror how I am feeling and they always release them around the time when I am feeling them!

Things are beginning to get better slowly, I am beginning to feel myself but even thats taking time. I am wondering if I will ever be 100%. I have realised that being honest with myself has consquences, but whats the point of not being honest with myself if I feel like I am living a lie?! I am also learning to speak out about how I am feeling, I am sick of people ignoring my feelings, honestly it seems at times that no one wants to know how I am feeling, one day I went around doing my business and barely talking to anyone and 'wore' what I was feeling just to see if anyone noticed which no one did! This upsets me, I mean if more people noticed how people were feeling, our depression rate would be much lower, all it takes is someone to ask how your doing and generally mean it, to make you feel a bit better (I know this from experience!).

I find that right now all I can do is listen to myself and take things a step at the time (which I am doing). I also need to find confidence in myself seeing as I have little. So I am hoping slowly I will feel more like myself but until then I am just taking small and steady steps until I am 100%.

Wednesday, May 25, 2011

A quick post!

I am soooo sorry that this blog post is so late! I have just started work experience and I get home quite late (I get up quite early too) and very tired. I am enjoying work experience though which is a good thing, so I'm not complaining (yet!).
Things have picked up for me, which is good, nothing has completely changed but small things are happening which make me smile. I know this blog post is very short but I don't have much to say, I will try to do a longer post on saturday though!

Friday, May 20, 2011

Quiet

Tonight I have been very quiet, I mean for me a person who rarely stops talking that is really odd! Mum has kept asking me if I am ok and I keep telling her I am but at the same time I'm not. I mean I'm not feeling myself at all (I picked at my dinner and couldn't face ice cream, I have no appetite)! I feel like I could burst into tears at any given moment and am consistently tired (which is strange as I get 9 hours of sleep every night). I almost burst into tears yesterday when the teacher told me to do something which I didn't want to do. This is really werid for me. I am going to see my doctor in 3 weeks (it was the earliest we could get in as he is on leave) so please pray that goes well and he knows what to do or whats wrong with me (we have theroies but thats it). As Mum and Dad and I don't what is going on with me. We are just thankful that we picked it up early and we didn't leave it too late or when it was really bad. For the time being I am just listening to my body and not pushing myself much.

Saturday, May 14, 2011

Not a 'normal' teenage girl

This past week has been easier, though at the same time harder why is it that I can't win?!
I have realised that I need to be honest with myself which I haven't been doing. I also have realised that I am not a 'normal' teenage girl ok I guess I have always know this but it seems to have just come into light recently. So seeing as I feel like writing a list here are some reasons that I am not a 'normal' teenage girl:
  1. I don't read teenagey magzines, I would rather read a cooking magazine that a girly one. You know the ones that are filled with gossip and quizzes like 'which movie matches your life most' and 'what type of guy is perfect for you' which are a load of junk and fyi the quizzes don't work nor are they accurate. I chucked out the few (10 and they're all 2009 issues too) I had today, though I did rip out a few pages and made a nice collage canvas out of them.
  2. I find very few celebrity guys cute or hot (my Dad is probably very happy and proud), the guys from Glee and the Jonas Brothers they are cute (some of the Glee guys are boarder line though). But any other celebrity guy? ICK!!!
  3. I still watch kids show, I mean most of the time they're funny also I can watch without feeling awkward about it when my parents walk in (they always seem to walk in during the only bad part of a tv show or movie why is that?!)
  4. I don't wear alot of makeup. Unless I'm going out somewhere nice or we have people coming over and we are making a big deal of them coming over ie we haven't seen for ages, I won't wear it. I do wear lipgloss though and lip balm on a regular basis but thats it.
  5. I don't go out to parties on a regular basis. Its just something I'm not into.
So there are some of the reasons why I'm not a 'normal' teenage girl and you know what? I like being me and have no desire to change.

Sunday, May 8, 2011

Ten things I have done over the past week.

I haven't posted in awhile so I thought I should, so here are ten things I have done over the past week
  1. Fought with my sister
  2. Watched Night At The Museum 2
  3. Drove round the local uni's car park and didn't hit any curbs (this is a big thing for me, considering how many I have hit the first and 2nd times I drove btw this was my third time driving)!
  4. Made breakfast for mum for Mothers Day (today!). We had crepes with berrys in syrup, wipped cream and caramel sauce really yummy :)
  5. Watched Glee
  6. Gone on facebook
  7. Done are really hard in class asignment for english ( I will be happy if I get 50%!)
  8. Baked my dad a birthday cake (his birthday was on thursday)
  9. Bought a thing to stop my head phones from getting tangled up (honestly why does that always happen! $4 later and I am very happy :D)
  10. Helped out at sunday school :)

Sunday, April 24, 2011

Hay conejos por todas partes!

Happy Easter every one! The title of this post is in spanish its not really relevent to what I am going to write about but it gave me a laugh this morning (I'll tell you what it means at the end of the post), my parents bought this calender and every day it has a Spanish sentence that you can use in everyday life, some of the sentences are: Yo no, prefiero los gatos- Not me, I prefer cats and Es el final del camino- It's the end of the road.
Today has been a good day, for starters we got rain!!! We have had a very dry summer and autum so far, so getting rain today was great. Church was good and it was fun celebrating Easter. This afternoon it was very laid back and me and my sisters watched dvds and ate chocolate which was nice. Overall it was a good day.
So what does 'Hay Conejos por todas partes?' mean? 'There are rabbits everywhere!' my aim now is to work this sentence into a conversation somehow :) hope you guys have had a good easter :)

Wednesday, April 20, 2011

Ten things you might not know about me

After such a great start I hoped this week would be better but yesterday it went downhill but I will spare you all the details and have decided to tell you guys ten things you might not know about me.
  1. I have never dyed my hair, the only streaks I have are natural.
  2. My desk is always messy so I end up doing my home work at the computer or at the kitchen table.
  3. I have a habit of buying stationary that I rarely use just because its cute.
  4. I have a heap of books, and have a fear that if I let people borrow them I won't get them back (but I always do (well I haven't lost a book yet)! Once a friend borrowed one of my books for a year because I rarely saw her.)
  5. I prefer chocolate over lollies.
  6. I love watching (non cartoon) disney movies.
  7. I have never had braces.
  8. I hate waking up to go school in winter and one of the main reasons is not just because its cold but my winter school uniform takes ages to get on.
  9. I have been to two primary schools and two high schools.
  10. I don't have any homework these holidays.

Monday, April 18, 2011

A Great Day

Today was a great day, my friend Ainslie (who also happens to read this blog, HI Ainslie!!!) came over which was great we scrapbooked in the morning then walked across to the shops and got lunch. Finally we made cup cakes overall it was a great day and one that I will remember for years to come :) it was great to talk and catch up. Next week are planning to go to see the movie Hop which looks sooo cute, which will be nice.
It was good day and I finally managed to do a bit of scrapbooking which I have been putting off for ages! It was suprising the amount of stuff we had in common (in a good way) we both love to read (she left with a stack of books to read), love Glee and go on alot of the same websites!
So thank you Ainslie for a great day we must do it again :)

Friday, April 15, 2011

A better day!

Today so far has been a much better day, maybe its the fact that I am on holidays? I honestly don't know but here is a quick recap of my day so far!
I awoke at a decent hour (7.30am to be exact) and I felt this huge sense of peace, I had, had this dream and in it, everything worked itself out and was how I had hoped it to be. My guess was that God was telling me that he will help me work through my troubles and that in the end I will get the happy ending I have praying for but in his own timing!
I had lounged around for awhile going on facebook, playing games on my ipod etc. Then Mum, Dad and I went out to a shopping center. While we there Mum asked me out of the blue if I had anything to wear to a party tomorrow and I said I wasn't really sure so we went looking for a top and found a gorgeous top that looked soooo nice on and the colour suited me perfectly (its almost the exact same colour as my ball gown! Which is royal purple) so this brightened my mood, I love the top and can't wait to wear it! We continued shopping for awhile then went home where I have spent the rest of the day relaxing.
I don't have alot planned for next week, on Monday one of my friends is coming over and we are going to scrapbook, listen to Glee, watch Glee and bake cookies (thats if we don't run out of time!), so that will great, but apart from that I will just go with flow.

Wednesday, April 13, 2011

Coming to an end.

The school term is coming to an end, this has been a term I would rather forget. Things haven't been easy and at times I have felt like screaming, so too say I am glad this term is over is under statement. Because of this term being hard I have had to find ways to escape and I am suprised how they have become habits. I now listen to music regulary when ever I am feeling down the song Firework (first sung by Katie Perry) by Glee has been a great help so has the two original songs by the Glee cast: Get It Right and Loser Like Me. I now write in a journal poems and statements about how I am feeling. These two things have been a great help and both help me clear my mind.
Things are getting easier but there are still things that set me off.
I can only hope that next term will be better.

Wednesday, April 6, 2011

Choices

We all have choices in this world regardless of what people may say, no matter who you are you have you have a choice. I admit sometimes the choices can be hard but at then end of the day its your choice. I have been in a bad situation today and I had to make a choice which I did, I don't know how the choice will affect me in the future nor do I know if I made the right choice. But I guess thats the thing about the choices we don't always know how they will affect us in the long run. So now I need to hope and pray that the choice I have made is the right one.

Tuesday, April 5, 2011

Move on

I know I need to move on, but I can't. It drives me mad and there are small things that set me off, like a photo or something that I wrote. I wanted to run out of study today cause I saw something and I didn't mean too, I mean I folded over the pages so I knew not to look there, but I caught a glimpse, but thankfully I managed to get back on track! Its hard and its been more than a month since it happened, I have been trying to move on, I mean I have watched soooo many chick flicks in the past month than I have in my whole life time!
I don't know when I will fully move on, maybe after I have forgiven myself which I haven't been able to do and I don't think I ever will be able to do unless something drastic happens!

Sunday, April 3, 2011

I Want

I Want
I want to be that girl in the purple gown again.
I want to have no worries for night and be a princess.
I want to smile and mean it.
I want everything to be fine between us.
I want to be able to tell you how I really feel.
I want to move on.
I want to hold onto the past.
I want to lose myself in the future.
I want to be able to dance around the house and be free.
I want to be able to dream and for once have those dreams come true.
I want people to accept me for me.
I want people to smile at me and mean it.
I want to write a book of poems.
I want to sing and have no one tell me how bad I am.
I want not to judged for being myself.
I want my true colours to show.
I want . . .