Wednesday, March 30, 2016

The interview

With Easter and everything I realised I didn't do a recap of my interview last Thursday.
So last Tuesday I met with my employment agency and they were thrilled that I had a job interview and insisted on driving me to it (side note: while I totally appreciated them doing it I don't think it helped so much in the big picture of things so next time I won't be letting them do it) which was nice but I did miss out on my ritual of clearing my mind, listening to some upbeat music and praying and giving it all to God. I did pray before I went in as I always do and wasn't as nervous as I thought I would be.
The interview lasted around 20 minutes (which is average) and they seemed impressed with my answers and I could tell they had actually looked at my resume which was encouraging. I walked out of the interview knowing I did my best and it was all in God's hands. I have no idea whether I will get the job or not but I do know that whatever happens God has a plan for me. I will hopefully find out by Friday if I have the job or not and I'm not a fan of the waiting game to say the least! I am praying that I will be at peace with whatever happens and that the outcome is the best for me. There is not that many jobs going that I can apply for at the moment it seems that all the jobs are either too far to travel or in high anxiety work places (Law firms being the big one!) or they want me to drive a mini van (I am still figuring out how to handle a small car!).
I keep getting told that I must be an expert on interviews, resumes and cover letters by now. While I will admit that I know what to expect and how to write a decent resume and cover letter I am in no means an expert as every interview is different! I have had some interviews that go for 5 minutes (no kidding, there the ones where I feel like I should get a refund for my preparation time!) and others that go for 20-30 minutes. I have been in interviews where I have felt like I am facing a firing squad and have been told that I don't know how my anxiety works and they don't think I could handle the job or that I was lying on my resume which left me leaving the interview feeling like I was useless. I have been in interviews where I have left feeling amazing and confident (like the one I have just had) but giving it to God. I have had interviews where I have been interviewed by 1 person, and others where I have been interviewed by a panel.
Every interview is different and you never know what will happen. Sure I know the base questions; tell us about yourself? Give us some challenging situations that you have faced in the workplace and how did you handle them? What's your experience in *insert situation here* or using *insert computer program here*? but at the end of the day it all comes down to God and whether this job is in his bigger picture for you.
I can't help but pray that I get this job but I know that deep down I have done my best so its up to God to do the rest. I am praying that in the next couple of days my phone will ring with good news but it rings with bad news then I will accept that and keep moving forward. God always knows what he is doing even if at the time you have no idea and want to give up, God has it all planned out for you.

Monday, March 21, 2016

Book Review I'll Be Yours by Jenny B Jones

I love to read but I have been in a bit of a reading slump lately that was until this book appeared in my inbox so I quickly downloaded it just in time for church camp.
In my opinion this book is to blame for the all the crazy dreams I had on camp which were all based around dating (and left me walking around in dazes at times!).
I love Jenny B Jones and she has yet to write a bad book, I will admit this book is predictable but its a good story and a great light hearted read so perfect for a weekend away (if you need something to break up the hours of board games and eating) at the beach.
The blurb reads (taken from Amazon):
She’s the coach’s brilliant daughter, clueless about love. He’s the dethroned football star, ready to teach Romance 101. When dark secrets and sparks collide, there’s no playbook for what happens next.

The day Andrew Levin arrives at Washington High, Harper O’Malley knows he’ll make the perfect starter boyfriend. The school’s newest band geek is totally in Harper’s league, yet completely out of this late-bloomer’s reach. Between fitting in with a new family, scoring the first chair in band, and rescuing dogs for the local animal shelter, Harper’s never had the opportunity to hone her dating skills. But even though Harper’s love life is far from perfect, she’s got the perfect plan.

Harper knows she’s insane to agree to tutor Ridley Estes, a notorious heartbreaker and the star of her high school’s football team—but in exchange, he’s offered to school her in the game of love. Just when she sees promise with her crush, a football scandal rocks her family, her town, and Ridley’s entire future. Harper suddenly has everything to lose—her family, friends, and even her heart. When the dust of the scandal settles, nothing will be the same. Including the girl who asked the most popular jock to teach her about love.

Award-winning author Jenny B. Jones returns to YA with a sweet, funny novel about first love and the power of letting go.

Jenny has never been one to shy away from the whole foster/adoption topic and this book contained lots of that and it was nice to see especially as this topic seems to be brought up a lot in the media recently. I enjoyed getting to hear Harper's back story as the book went on and just how much her past shaped her that she didn't realise. It's often easy to do things subconsciously without realising where the behaviour came from and its good to see Harper realising this and figuring it out as the story goes on.

I also loved how Harper's life intertwined with Ridley's and how they both realised that they were more alike than first meets the eye.

I did feel like this book was rushed in places and the ending was abrupt, though I think an epilogue would've fixed it. I just felt like there was still a lot of questions left that needed to be answered, while the main story was wrapped up.

All in all this book was a great read and I highly recommend it if you are in a reading rut and need something to get you out of it.

The book is available as of the 22nd of March at the following sources:

*I was provided with an epub version of this book in exchange for my honest opinion.

Thursday, March 17, 2016

Everything Together

Yesterday I had a mini breakdown, I had a phone call from Centrelink and they are not helpful at all to say the least! According to them my anxiety isn't an ongoing condition and shouldn't affect my work at all, so therefore I left my job of my own accord not because I had to in order to keep on top of my mental health. This is despite them having countless medical certificates and me being with a 'disability' (ie anything that could affect your work life long term) employment agency. I might've lost it a bit on the phone as they weren't being reasonable which resulted in me letting the tears fall in the middle of town. I was pretty much told that I had to go back to my doctor to get another medical certificate within the next two days explaining that my anxiety affects my work and that was why I left my job. My doctor is hard to get in to on short notice so I ended up booking an appointment with another doctor at the practice who sees his patients and could access my records. I then have to go to Centrelink with the certificate so they can put it on my records and they can (finally) process my claim. Thankfully by some miracle I was able to get a cancellation so I am now seeing my doctor this afternoon, I'm not a big fan of doctors (its one of my major anxiety triggers) and its only because I have been seeing my doctor for so long that I am able to go see him anxiety free.
I have been slowly applying for jobs and try to apply for at least one a day, of course I am extremely picky with what jobs I do apply for so that makes it hard. Yesterday I was sitting down just relaxing and recovering from the above when I got a phone call from a company I applied for. It is a customer service role but with a few major differences one its for a smaller company which is actually a care/mental health support/disability support agency and they work with people who have disabilities, though it is every day the hours are in the morning and they are flexible, its also just not customer service I will be doing home visits as well. I can see myself being a good fit for the position and it ticks all the boxes. The interview is next Thursday at 9.00am so if you guys could pray for me that would be awesome. I just feel like this is step in the right direction and maybe this job is the one for me.
I used to think when I was younger 21 was the age when you had everything together and as I am learning at no age do you ever have everything together. At 21 I still cry and loose it, I still have no idea what I am doing and my anxiety still makes my life hell at times. I just have to keep reminding myself that even if I don't have it together God has it together for me and that's more than enough.

Tuesday, March 8, 2016

Suggestion box

I have come to the conclusion that I need a suggestion box hanging around my neck so people can tell suggest for me what job I should be doing. Currently I am in a land of unknowns and its challenging to say the least! Then I have people suggesting jobs that I would be good at or should go into, the main one being something to do with baking. Don't get me wrong I love baking but the only real way forward with that is to start my own business and to do that while living at home just isn't doable, our kitchen is small enough as it is and I don't feel like I could impose that on my family at this stage! Plus I would have to purchase a kitchenaid as our current stand mixer (its at least 15 years old if not older) would not be able to handle the large amounts of baking going on and I can't justify spending that amount of money (around $700) at this stage when I am in this situation (if anyone has a spare $700 feel free to send it my way in exchange you will receive baked goods every month for the next 12 months!).
I did have a group interview at a caring agency last week but did not move into the next round which I expected as everyone had so much more experience than me.
I just have no idea what jobs I should be looking into, I do know for certain the following things:
  • I want to help people.
  • I love ReachOut and spreading the word about mental illness.
  • I have a sister with Down Syndrome whom I have been heavily involved with caring for her since I can remember.
  • I love baking.
  • I am a caring person.
  • I have admin and business skills.
  • I can handle challenges and it takes a lot for me to want to give up.
  • I know what good customer service is.
I guess if someone could combine all the above and create a job then I would be happy, but for now its back to the drawing board and to praying that God will show the next step soon enough!