Friday, June 29, 2012

Hard to Focus

Life has been hectic to say the least things have been happening and its only been the past two days when I have been able to relax as life has been so hectic! I finished TAFE on Wednesday and its a relief to end it and to not have to go back, the past few weeks I have had no motivation at all but thankfully I passed all my units so all is good, now to find a job :)

My Grandma is currently in hospital as she fell out of bed for the 3rd time in three days and is in alot of pain due to her back (she can barely stand and walk due to the pain). She went in on Sunday morning and we have no idea when she will be out though she will move to a rehabilitation ward when they have a place for her (not that its going to help we just have no idea what to do), its hard but God is good and we can only hope he will guide us what to do next about her. So pray that we are able to work out what to do.

I keep getting glances of my reflection in doors and mirrors and I can't believe that its me! I have honestly never felt this good about myself in ages. It seems that I have lost weight due to walking everywhere (walking to bus stops ect) and am eating more healthy (maybe thats due to having to cut down on dairy as my intolerance has flared up big time?) but I feel and look great.

So I have recently discovered this blog written by a young Christian guy Grant and its amazing to say the least. It's a great read and gets you to think about various topics that I am sure pop up in your mind. He is also on twitter and his tweets always get me to think or point out something that I have never realised before. Check it out you won't regret it his posts are truely works of art (I would like to see him publish a book one day).

I turn 18 in just under 3 months and I honestly can't believe it that soon I will be an adult and not considered a child.

Anyway this post has been random but its like my mind at the moment I have so many things going on its hard to focus on one thing.

Saturday, June 16, 2012

Trusting God with EVERYTHING!!!

Last night I finally began to look at jobs and to say that I am overwhelmed would be an understatement I am scared, and honestly just want to crawl under the covers anytime anyone mentions the word job. I have no idea where to start and I am doubting myself does anyone really want to hire a 17 year old who talks far to much, bites their nails, doesn't have their licence and has anxiety? Yes I have the skills many of the jobs require but honestly who would want to hire me?!

I am honestly doubting that I will ever get a boyfriend yes I know I am only 17 but I haven't been kissed and it seems all the guys around me are either chasing after someone else or not interested in me and are happy being friends. Who honestly wants to date someone who is crazy about cats, is still trying to sort out her life, is clumsy (I am amazed that I haven't fallen down or up the stairs at TAFE), and can sometimes be emotional? The fact is I have always dreamt of getting married young its like my ball gown I always dreamt it would be strapless (and it was) and no one could change my mind. In all my dreams I am married by the time I am 21/22 yes I know its young but thats what I have always wanted. My parents got married when they were in their late 20's/early 30's and that suited them but they're not me!

Heres the thing yes I have been a Christian for what seems like forever but there are times when I still find it hard to trust God with things like the above two situations. It really makes me mad at myself because I know I should trust God but for some reason I doubt him. Everyone tells me God has the perfect Job out there for me (and the perfect guy) but there is always a part of me that doesn't believe them. Being a Christian is hard and I will admit trusting God with EVERYTHING (not just a handful of things) is one of the hardest things I have had to do. So I guess I will just have to pray that God helps me trust him with EVERYTHING and pray that he has the perfect job and guy out there for me.

Thursday, June 14, 2012

Study Tips

Today I won  contest which was put on by Stabilo (you know the awesome stationary brand). Basically you had to submit your best study tips and they choose the three that stood out and mine was one of them, I NEVER win anything so this is a big deal. So here are the tips I submitted:
  • Eat healthy! Try and avoid anything with loads of sugar as it won’t keep you motivated for long, instead eat protein rich snacks while you are studying. Things like almonds, trail mix, hard boiled egg, plain popped pop corn, fruit and veggie sticks all keep you concentrated which means you are able to study for longer and your brain will absorb the information better. Avoid or limit caffeine and instead stick to water. On the day of the exam have a good breakfast such as scrambled eggs on toast, fruit salad and yogurt, porridge with nuts stirred through or baked beans on toast, these will keep you full which means your stomach won’t be rumbling during the exam!
  • Get a good nights rest! DON’T try and pull a few all nighters studying leading up to the exam, it will make you tired and your study won’t be as thorough and detailed as it could be. Whereas if you have had a good nights rest you will be able to concentrate and process the information better, aim to get 8-9 hours of sleep a night.
  • Take short breaks! Rather than study for a full five hours with no breaks aim to study for one hour blocks with a 15 minute break between each, this means your mind won’t turn off.
  • Block out distractions! Find an area which is free of distractions and turn all iPods, phones and other electronics. Also make sure your family and other people in your house realise that you are studying and avoid that area of the house.
  • Study Notes! These take a bit of time each day but are worth it. At the end of each day take dot points (in a separate notebook for each subject) of what you have learnt and do each one in a different colour (as it makes the information easier to remember) at the end of each week summarise the dot points for each subject (at the end of every week look back at all the weekly summaries to refresh your memory). This means that the information has already been committed to memory a few (hundred?) times so you won’t have to study as hard, it also makes studying A LOT easier (you also won’t have to panic as much if the lecturer/teacher springs a test on you!).
Though I haven't had to study heaps due to the classes I choose but I have used these tips and have found them very helpful.

Friday, June 8, 2012

It's a Hard Christian Life but a Life Worth Living

Its tough being a Christian in todays world, when we put our faith in god we knew it wasn't going to be easy, but I guess none of us thought it would be this hard. We are CONSISTENTLY judged, with the whole gay marriage debate most people think we're selfish because we don't agree with them, people think that we are going to shove Christiany down their throats and people secretly think we're crazy. Yes in Australia we are lucky in the fact we are able to be Christian and not killed for believing in God and speak freely about it but its still hard. I have been shunned, bullied and teased of being Christian I have had teachers target me saying how bad the church is and telling me there is no God, fellow students have avoided me. Ask any Christian and they will all have similar experiences and its sad.

The whole gay marriage debate? We don't hate gays, we just disapprove of their lifestyle choices and honestly marriage is between a man and a women end of the story. Quit thinking we hate gays, we don't and its annoying when you think we do.
Abortion? Abortion equals murder, we were all once foetuses its self explanitory really.
We are all open to our opinions yet it seems our opinions don't matter and are stupid most of the time, I'm sure it would be different if we agreed with everyone on the above topics but we don't.

So why do we still openly talk about God and wear Christianity with pride? Because God is so amazing and loving that we want everyone to know about him how he sent he son to die on the cross and created this world from nothing. 

People will always judge us and yes it will still hurt after its happened for the 100th and 1000th times but with God on our side we always have someone to help us pick up the pieces.