Friday, May 27, 2016

Five Friday Favourites

Happy Friday! I am so close to getting my laptop back I can feel it :) (you can still donate here if you haven't already!) it's been a while since I have done Friday Favourites so here is what I have been loving over the past few weeks:
  • The Next Step Wild Rhythm Tour - when I found out that they were coming to Australia I couldn't resist asking Megan if she wanted to go see them as an extremely early birthday present (its actually near my Birthday). As I had her companion card (which means a carer gets in free at certain events/venues such as concerts, movies, the zoo etc.) I was able to splurge for decent seats, I think I am more excited about it than she is but no doubt it will be a good sisterly bonding time! ***I apologise to everyone now who has to put up with me talking about between now and September***
  • Hoyts Girls Night Out - I love these nights and always feel spoilt after attending one. I have seen How To Be Single (with my friend Sarah), My Big Fat Greek Wedding 2 (with my Mum) and Through The Looking Glass (with Jocelyn) and each night is so much fun. I don't mind paying a bit extra and it only works out being an additional $8 and you receive a beauty box and sparkling mineral water. The next movie showing is Me Before You which looks like a really good film (I am currently reading the book and its a challenge not to cry) on June 15th.
  • Kobo Aura H2O - my Kobo Touch recently died after 4 years with it using it non stop so I
    decided that it was time for an upgrade (which I had been considering anyway). It was a no brainer to go with another Kobo and I liked the idea of being able to read in the bath if I wanted to and also not worry about getting it wet (because I am extremely clumsy and its not uncommon if I spill water all over myself). I love the screen and how it adapts to the light and how good the screen is, if you are after an e-reader you can't go wrong with kobo.
  • The Cookies and Cups Cookbook - I have loved Shelly's blog for ages so I couldn't resist ordering her cookbook when it came out and it is amazing! Full of loads of sweet treats and a
    few savoury ones. The pictures and stories that go along with the recipes are beautiful and make me want to bake everything. I spent a couple of hours bookmarking all the recipes I want to try and have so far tried Brown Butter Blondies which were amazing and can't to try the other recipes.
  • When this clip first came out it gave me goosebumps! I mentioned on the last Friday Favourites that I did I was loving the Lost and Found Music Studios and this is performed by some of the cast.


     

Monday, May 23, 2016

Just an update.

Time for another update on my life post! Life is going by slowly and honestly I am struggling a lot recently because I feel that I am not moving forward just staying in the same spot!
  • Unemployment - nothing has changed in that area, there are very few jobs that I can apply for and the ones I do apply I never hear back from. I do have yet another employment agency consultant but I feel connected with her and she is so nice. She has also thought of a few things that I haven't covered with any other consultants so she knows what she is doing! I am just giving it to God and waiting and praying.
  • No laptop - this is challenging and I am counting down the days until I get it back! What's made it worth it is that so many of my friends have been sponsoring me and I am $48 shy of my target so if you haven't already please donate - you can do so by clicking here.  I get my laptop back next Wednesday so I am super excited and plan to spend at least 2 days locked up catching up on all the TV shows I have been missing. A friend asked me if I had been keeping a list of shows I need to catch up on and want to watch once I get my laptop back and I have but not obsessively and just a mental list. I do know that it will take me at least a couple of days of watching to catch up with everything but I am not real hurry to do so especially as some of the shows have been cancelled so if I can draw those out for as long as possible I will be happy.
  • ReachOut - I am still trying to do as much as I can with ReachOut and last Monday even got to give them a shoutout on the radio! I was listening in to the local radio station and they asked what would give up for a month of wifi and I texted in saying that I was actually giving up my laptop (and therefore access to wifi to a degree) for a month and thought nothing of it. I then receive a phone call a couple of hours later asking if I would be ok talking about it and my reasons as to why I don't have a laptop. So for a few minutes I got to talk about my reasons for not having a laptop and explain why ReachOut is important to me. I am also doing another 5km walk for them in July you can donate to that here. My overall aim is to raise a total of $350 for ReachOut this year so that's $250 giving up my laptop and $100 doing the 5km walk though I am planning on doing a competion again.
I just feel like I am in a waiting stage of my life (again!) and know that it will eventually pass, yet I can't see the end of the tunnel and its discouraging. I know God is in control and that there is a reason for this its just hard to see at the moment. But for now I will get keep waiting and praying as I have been doing for the past few months.

Wednesday, May 11, 2016

Change

I'm not a fan of change, I need routine to function and need to know what is going on at all times for me being spontanious isn't a thing. For example I go to the same petrol station on the same day at the same time every week which some might call it crazy but for me I like knowing that on that day I w
ill fill up my car and it will be cheaper than any other day of the week.
Don't get me wrong change is good and if things didn't change we would all be stuck in the same situations but it doesn't make it any easier to accept. I am currently in a transition period looking for work (again!) and just trying to figure out what I want to do with my life long term and whats needed to get to that place. Its extremely annoying especially when there are no jobs to apply for and the ones that you do apply for you hear nothing back from (excuse me while I go scream into a pillow then hug my cat and eat a block of chocolate to cope)! Or if you do hear back from them its just a short generic email saying that you weren't suitable for the job with no other explanation (which is to be expected if they have so many applicants but it just makes me worse than what I already am feeling).
There is no doubt about it that my anxiety is linked into this need to have a routine. Having a routine and knowing what is going on at all times helps me manage it. When I was younger I hated anything out of the ordinary that was happening and would dig myself into this hole thinking about the various events. School excursions even if they were fun I would get anxious over, sports and swimming carnivals I hated (mind you I think being bad at sport due to Dyspraxia didn't help) and don't even get me started on school camps! Now that I am an adult and I have some control over what is going on in my life it helps and I can plan my days depending on how I am feeling and what else is happening in my life. Of course that only works 50% of the time as God always has other plans and I feel like so much of my time is spent waiting and praying.
Change is hard and no one should deny that it isn't but it can also be amazing like when a caterpillar changes into a butterfly or the garden comes alive after a good rain storm. I guess to put it simply I am just struggling with the changes that are happening around me at the moment and look forward to when I come alive again after a good storm.


Tuesday, May 3, 2016

A year of being a ReachOut Youth Ambassador

I can't believe its been one year since I took a huge leap and became a Youth Ambassador for ReachOut! Its crazy to think how time has flown and what I have acheived:
  • Did a 5km run/walk for ReachOut and raised just over $250 by doing it - posts related to it here and here
  • Did a movie night which meant I organised it completely by myself and got sponsors yes it didn't get a good amount of numbers but the organisation side of things went smoothly. Plus it taught myself that I could do something to that big a scale! - posts related to it here 
  • Did a couple of stalls and presentations here and there including one at my sister's youth group and most recently a stall at the youth week markets - posts related to that here
  • Did various blog posts highlighting what ReachOut does including NextStep. - posts relating to what ReachOut does here and here
  • I am currently Upping My Game for the month of May which means NO laptop and I am seriously struggling so please sponsor me 
I love ReachOut so much and its honestly been the best experience, I can't wait to see where being a youth ambassador will take me next!
Feel free to check out this post which I wrote the day after the weekend workshop I am so thankful I took a chance and became a youth ambassador. If you ever get the opportunity to become one take it you will not regret it!

Thursday, April 28, 2016

Upping my game for the month of May

For the month of May ReachOut is encouraging everyone to Up Your Game to raise awareness of
suicide to do this you can either Step Up - do something you would normally never do or Give Up - give up something for the whole month. When I got the email in my inbox encouraging me to sign up I knew I wanted to do it but I had no idea what I would do. There were a few ideas but none really clicked, my Mum suggested I give up sugar to which I asked her if she wanted to suffer for the whole month. It was only at Bible Study when someone suggested I give up my laptop (and offered to sponsor me if I did) that I knew I had found something!
I mainly use my laptop for Netflix and watching shows so for me to give it up would be challenging but I figure I can survive it. I will have access to the family computer but that means working around the family and no Netflix.

FAQs surrounding me giving up my laptop:

Why just your laptop why not screens completely? Because I need to survive! I also need to apply for jobs, keep in touch with people and keep up with the world. I will admit that I may have a binge watching addiction so this is a way to curb that while also allowing myself some freedom.

Won't you able to watch Netflix on your phone and ipod? No because as of Saturday night I am deleting both apps off of my phone and ipod. I am also planning on using minimal youtube for the month of May as well.

How much are you hoping to raise? Initially it was $500 but I have since decreased that to $250 as I am hoping to do another 5km walk for ReachOut in July and don't want people to feel preassured to donate to both.

How do you plan survive the month of May? By reading lots of books, I also have quite a few DVDs that I want to catch up on including Heros, Bones, Friday Night Lights and the first season of my beloved Greek plus I wouldn't mind rewatching the first 2 seasons of Brooklyn Nine Nine.

Where can we support you? Here you can also sign up to Up Your Game as well. Every bit counts and you know that it will be going to support ReachOut. I only do crazy things like this for organisations I am passionate and love about so you know I must love ReachOut!

Now if you excuse me I have some binge watching to do before May starts!

Friday, April 22, 2016

Sick of Waiting

Its been very quiet on the job front this past week and my mood has pretty much stayed the same as it was in this post. There has also been NO jobs to apply for which hasn't helped me feel like I am going anywhere. To make things worse I am blocked on my employment agencies books due to Centrelink but according to Centrelink I am still with them yet they are the only ones who can unblock me. I am also unable to report online until my employment agency marks me as not working part time but they can't as I am blocked on their system. I am so confused and have pretty much told my employment agency to sort it out because I am getting nowhere with Centrelink and have no idea what is going on.
It's tough because if I knew I would get work in a couple of weeks I would just stop the payments I am getting and live off of my savings but at this stage this isn't looking likely.
I honestly just wish the end was in sight because I am over not working and over looking for jobs to apply for (I am pretty sure finding a needle in a haystack would be easier!). I did apply for a job a couple of weeks ago and that closed on Monday and I have another week and a bit to see if  I will hear from them but I am loosing hope there. If you could please pray that I get an interview for this job that would be amazing as for now I am grasping at any threads of hope and it would be great if I did land this interview (and potientally the job).
I KNOW God has a plan for me and one day I will get a great job but I am sick of waiting and waiting. I guess who I can do is just keep praying and know that God knows what he is doing even though at the moment I have no clue what that is!

Tuesday, April 12, 2016

Hitting the point

I hit have that point, the point when I am over being unemployed, the point when I begin to wonder if it would be worthwhile to use my life savings and just run, the point where I overthink every little thing, the point where I begin to think that I have made a big mistake.
I have hit this point sooner than I expected and its crept up on me, one day I was fine the next I was stress eating and wanting to scream. I know I should just trust God and know that this is all part of his plan but I am having trouble seeing it.
I have been baking like crazy because when I bake I feel useful and that feeling is what I need. Plus its cheaper than shopping which I really can't afford at the moment.
There are very few jobs to apply for recently which isn't helping me survive this.
I have looked at the numbers and the bigger picture and I know in order to survive both financially and mentally I will need to work around 20 hours a week preferably full days so I have at least 2 days to breathe. I want to help people and ReachOut is that outlet for me, I want to start up my studies again and I want to be able to do it while working without burning out.
At the end of the day I will survive hitting the point though I may come out with some bruises I will survive it and I know God will help me through it.