Tuesday, March 24, 2015

Safest Place

Whenever my anxiety reaches its peak I always wish that I had a place where I could hide, a place where all my anxieties go away and where I am safe. Unfortunately such place doesn't exist because the only way to reach a safe a place with anxiety is to work through it and get to the other side. I learnt early on that hiding from my anxiety only made the outcome worse and my anxiety lasting longer. Sometimes I feel that I am own worst enemy and that in order to overcome my anxiety I need to fight myself.
My anxiety stems from the fear of the unknown, new experiences and failure, all of which are a part of life and are unavoidable.

There's this song by Echosmith called Safest Place the lyrics are as follows:

   Oh Woah, Oh Woah

You're not drowning, you're not lost
You're not broken, you're not star crossed

Keep ya far keep ya far from what I know
You'll be fine, you'll be fine just don't look closely... now

Run straight through the valley, and into where you want it to be
swim past the shadows
in the words that echo off the streams
If you're lookin' for truth, don't come looking for me
You're better off not knowing
Its your own story, Its the safest place you'll ever be

Oh woah

I was hoping that you'd be fine
Lies unfolding, Cover you're eyes

Keep ya far keep ya far from what I know
You'll be fine, you'll be fine just don't look closely... now

Run straight through the valley, and into where you want it to be
swim past the shadows
in the words that echo off the streams
If you're lookin' for truth, don't come looking for me
You're better off not knowing
Its your own story, Its the safest place you'll ever be
You'll ever be, You'll ever be

Oh woah
Oh, oh
oh, oh

Keep ya far keep ya far from what I know
You'll be fine, you'll be fine just don't look closely... now

Run straight through the valley, and into where you want it to be
swim past the shadows
in the words that echo off the streams
If you're lookin' for truth, don't come looking for me
You're better off not knowing
Its your own story, Its the safest place you'll ever be
You'll ever be, You'll ever be

The thing is there is no safe place when you have anxiety regardless of how much you want to have one, you have to make safe places in your mind the lyric 'Its your own story, its the safest place you'll ever be' rings true because of this. Before I go to sleep I like to make up stories in my mind and often when the goings get tough I slip back into this storyland as such and escape. The other day my anxiety decided to make itself known and when I got in my car I blasted this song and sang a long to it and by the end I felt like I was in a safe place and that I could handle whatever life through at me.

Anxiety can flare up at any given point in time and when it does you need to be able to create a safe place in your mind to get through it. There is no point in locking yourself up in your bedroom if you can't get to your bedroom if your anxiety comes on while at work or at school. You need to find a safe place that you can always get to regardless of where you are and what you are doing. I am still looking for a safe place to hide and ride out my anxiety when it gets really strong, for the time being this song is doing a good job until I can find something more permanent.

Here's a clip of the actual song which is well worth a listen to as the lyrics don't do it justice!



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